Sombre

Here's to the fucker
That miser will suffer
Every last breath
Like a secondary death
Mi amore

Undergrounded

Pushed below
Where I should
Be, where I want
To be, it's dark and
Colder than nights in
The emptiness

Paraded Around

This is the thing
That thing, you know
I was telling you about
The thing, oh right right
That thing, we thought
You meant the other thing
Like, the thing where
It was useless to
Remember the things?
Songs for thing one
Reasons for thing two
Love for other things

Blue Veins

Seen and not heard
Just the way it should be
Easiest to lose
Down the street, not
Across it, that's
How I was taught
So let's make a new
One sometime soon

Verbatim

There's a this
Followed by a
Quick little that
Tit for tat
Just like you
Short and stat
Now repeat
After me
Like so, don't
Make a single
Error here
It's critical
Critically criticised
And certainly
Slanderous
But serious in
Every way, so
Copy and do
Just as I say
And we'll get
Along just so
Very fine
Copy, paste, done

Brief Brilliance

Comes when you don't need it
Isn't there in times of necessity
Strikes you like a brick
Helpful in building, painful as
Hell, it's a good way to
Live

Best Time To Say

Whatever it is you want
Whenever you can
Wherever it is you need it to be
And the reasons
Are all yours
Again

Heavy Nights, Deadweight Days

Ever get that no good feeling
Where everything won't ever
Be as good as the awful sleep
You just woke up from?

Concrete Hilltops

What dreams have become
Made of, we define them
With our deeds and wealth
Monumental disregard
For disregarded monuments
Broken, breaking, blending
In with bleak surroundings
Crumbling now in ages new
Ignoring all that we were
Distracted by what we have
Become, are becoming
Will be tomorrow and the
Days to follow

Breathe Slow

In time with me now
Rattling, hollow, rasping
Choking for just one more
Everyday that goes by
Reason to keep the cycle
To stay here

Remaining Here

I'm chasing rays of sunshine
Broken through the window pane
They slip through these cold hands of mine
Like passing drops of rain
And as I stare into the darkest night
I'm called to remember that day
That left feeling like this
I'm colder in every way

Stability Let Me Go

Lighthouse on a
Floating ice shelf
Leading astray
Ships to nowhere
Nowhere's where
They go, mislead
Misguided in the
Image of assuredness

Tell Me A Story

Days so dim we can hardly see our own hands
LIfe so grim that every breath is a demand
Feel the chill as you draw another in
Shivers down your spine, slowly tingling
Sensations, vibrations, imagination's playing tricks
All the best in the books, as you search for a fix
Stumbling around in the smoke and crowd
Then trip over yourself, and in the silence cry aloud
Tell me, dear one
Where does the story lead

Discernment

The left and right
Of right and wrong
Ironic in the mind
Impossible in the act

Blind, Deaf, Mute, Paralysed But Alive

Remember that life
As you know it
Is golden in all its forms
While bedridden lies
The soul of one who
Wishes silently for
Death everyday
Or healing in miracle's
Form, which never comes
Look inside the mind
Of one like this
See the reasons why
Some don't deserve to live?
Now see the reasons why
Some don't deserve to die

Red Fox

Quiet, fallen
Shy, sly, try
Understand
Just why
Movement is
Like so
Survival, life
By the thread
Outfoxed to the last

What You Want

I can name it all
From money to fame
Then back again
They precede the fall
Such twisted games
Forever switching lanes
Give me a call
When you're the same
To when you felt pain
Because I know
What you need

To Know You're Alive

Check the pulse
Listen for it pounding
Beat. Beat.
Beat. Beat.
Check the breath
Listen for it whispering
Sigh. Sigh.
Sigh. Sigh.
Then remember
They died a long time ago
All you can hear
Is the shell of life
Anchoring them
To us, and everything
They wanted to escape

Check the heart
Echoes of nothing
To know they were alive
Once

Sleep It All To Somewhere Else

When I can dream
I'll see something so
Much more than
When I'm waking
In my sleep I'm
Carried away
See you when I wake up

Stray Away

Goodbye yellow brick road
I don't want to go home anymore
It's a heavy, heavy load
I've forgotten why I'm carrying it for

And the lights on the side
Look so much brighter
It's easier to step out of stride
And stop being a fighter

I'm tired, of every little thought
Belonging to this war
Being told what I ought
To do, well, no more

So, once again
Goodbye yellow brick road
I ain't going home no more

Melt Away

The inhibitions I held
All that held me back
From times I could tell
I would fall into black
Now, it's changed
Oh how it's different
In every single way
Because of insufficient
Needs for you

Torn Together

Find me the second
Half of what I left
Behind in the first
Verses of the last
Song I swore to write
It's the small slip
Of torn off paper
With that mindless
Thought of mine
Written, scrawled
Scribbled in haste
Before it could escape
The remnants of
My life and soul
Then with a ripping
Sound, harsh and
Swift to the touch
Tear me piece by
Little piece into
One whole, unbroken
Cracked vase, till
I'm torn together
With every piece of me
Shards, shreds, prodigal
Pieces of me, now
In my arms

Boxes

The boxes defining what
I am, who I was, and all
That I never could have
Been, now stacked within
A dusty shed so cold
So, so very damn cold
Whether broken or not
They still quietly call
From inside that shed
So, so hauntingly old

Sounds Like Something

Can't quite put my finger on it though
I swear, I know what it is, I've heard it
So many times before, familiar in every
Hollow, hallowed echo and verbrato
A cunningly caring, and cursed composite
Dedicated to the lost region of memory
I'll find you

Not A Single One Left

There is a spark
Brighter than the
Sun and stars

Ran away from
Source of light
Now it's faded

All are gone

Transparent

Look where you
Would see me
Look right through
My bits and pieces
Waking with all
Hearts abandoned
Only one to fall
Unfathomed
Distances below
The weary sunlight
Shouldn't you know
When nothing seemed right
Look, I tell you
Harder than before
All that's true
Is invisible, just ignore

Beautifully Broken

Beautifully broken
But bitterly brittle
Breaching bravado
Burdened beneath
By bedlam's belligerence
Bye, broken beauty

Jester's Beliefs

Within this smile
You hide the frown
Concealed, all while
You robbed the town
The joke was made
To turn the heads
And then the raid
So quick to end
The creed of those
Whose sly satire
Is made in prose
Verbal barbed wire

Where Were You

These colder days come
Welcomed in their haste
And I long to forget
Their reasons many
Why they stole my sun
Leaving me to waste
Pale, quiet instead
To leave, I'm ready

Understated

The unspoken understanding
We failed to undertake
Usurping every upheld
Urge in such unstable
Hearts of ours
Beating unloved, unidentified
Within unbroken shells so
Fragile, it's cold
Without you

Thief

I'd steal you an orchestra
To play you your heart's desire
But you don't want my strings
Or my broken piano keys

So when I stole that orchestra
I threw it into the fire
A useless heap of things
That brought me to my knees

Some Days

I'll pick up the pen
And forget why I started
In the first place
Promise you I won't hurt
But I can't assure you
That I won't scar
Lost for a short while, then
Forget why we parted

Forgetting What I've Forgotten

It's a little bit of time
Between the memories gone blind
Stale between the lines
Broken in each rhyme
So remember who you were
Then forget it with her
In the quickest of blurs
Say goodbye quickly
Look away wistfully
Vanish with the sun

I'm In

Drew a line for you
In the sand to see
Somehow what was
Between the two of us
Enough to break through
Love itself, in three
Instances, seconds
Eternities, count them
For me, between us

When We Take Over Never

What a shame we never saw never
Coming like a wave of every
Stored regret within, stuck
Behind the windows of your eyes

So for a while I've had this beat
Pushing itself around my head
It's heavy now, heavier in time
With the sound of misery

Because they always won't ever
Give you rhyme or reason to carry
Your mistakes with you, like luck
But they'll follow you like flies

Reminding you why you run in defeat
Leaving what you love for dead
It's almost like a crime
So just put me out of this misery

Circle

Start
With one
Then move on
To the next four
Or how many it takes
For you to feel satisfied again
Then watch them all pile up here
Every flaw, fault, past, present, till you break
Then remember those who got you here
For each life changed for you
Or scarred because of you
To every lost, broken
Then forgotten one
With them
Finish

This

I haven't seen you
In a while I suppose
But it's been, what
Like how many years?
More than a few
So when I say this
I don't want to, really

Maybe I could hide
It, underneath
Something that you
Shouldn't notice

Yeah that sounds right
Or should I just give up
Understand now, I'm close

Staring At The Stop Sign

Wondering why I'm even here
Not moving, just looking
At the red warning on the post
Telling me everything I need to do

Conspiracy

Plans I made
Turned against me
Just like that
Blinked an eye
They were gone
Rearranged twice over
And so now
Here I stand
Eyes staring down
My own gun

I've Seen

If you feared I'll leave
Then don't hold your breath
Because, and keep this in mind
I'm not staying for you
Or anyone who takes me
For granted, forgets like
That, just like that
So now you know, and
Be sure to not forget
I'll see you when you
Choose to remember

Breathless

Tired of running
Don't want to
Keep heading this
Way, I'm bound
For nowhere fast

Vanity Brought This

Looks like it's
Perfection, gracious
Beauteous in form
Now watch it crumble
Inwards
Pretty pillars don't
Make a safe place to live
So it all falls down
Eventually

Disdain

When there's not a piece
Of you that gives a shit
In the slightest of
Ways, shapes or forms

Not For Long

The weight of all I've done
Knows where to find me
When I hide from the world
I'm scared, I know, and
Running in circles
Just running in smaller
And smaller circles

Or Not

Wave you hello, goodbye
Sure comes fast though
Hand in hand like
You'll always know

Calling

Hear it coming from
The emergency room
I'm crashing on the
Table, as the doctors
Rush around me
I don't want to be
Revived but

Plastic Places

So remember where you go
Keep an eye out for those
People living in plastic places
They've got the fake faces

They smile like they mean it
But it's lies, I've seen it
Everything to begin with
Don't be fooled in this

So I'll keep in mind your
Fake place and plastic face
You made for me that night
And watch it break again
I won't stay for more
Of this, oh not a trace
Of me is going to remain tonight
Because I'm leaving on the next train

Progression

Stand in a crowd
And better hope
To whatever you
Want, that you
Can stand out
Maybe then you'll
Move on, finally

Golden

Amber glowing
Burnished to perfection
Crafted delicately from
Dreams of waves
Enfolded within the
Flowing tides
Graceful in every
Hypnotic motion
Intoxicating all senses
Just at a single touch
Knowing the pleasure
Lying beneath each
Moment of delicacy
Neglecting the hidden
Ominous taint of
Pure conniving seduction
Quelled by desire
Rusted iron set aside
Shining, sun kissed silver
Takes its place
Unveiling the new
Vanity, fair yet sly
Want for purity
Xerxes' greatest weakness
Yesteryear reveals, yet
Zealously we pursue this

Everybody's Me

We're not so different, you and I
It's just a matter of time till we collide
See, travelling at the same pace like this
Either leads us straight in, or we'll completely miss
The very reasons why we thought that we
Were so unique, alone, broken, free

The Moment

So here we are
Desperate for a
Little compassion
To find its way
Across the stars
And wipe away the
Tears in loving fashion
Then hope it stays

You sneak out at
Night, to take
A little stroll
Searching the alleys
For anything that
You can make
Into a heart, your own
To fill the valleys

I followed you
Traced every pace
Slipped ahead when
You almost fell
In time to catch you
Quickly fade
In darkness then
So you never knew hell

So there we were
Broken whole again
Not one or two
But a thousand
Pieces of hurt
Gone, and then
I turned to you
and said aloud


[I think our moment's now]

Early

Wake up and hear
The sound of
Morning on your
Ears, it's quiet
But loud with
The sound of
Being born again

In The Air

Close your eyes
Fall with me
Here we go
No more strings
Cables, cords, catches
We'll have none

Take a breath
Fly with me
Here we go
It's the same
Thing, isn't it?

Realistic

It's called a smile
Use it, because when
It surfaces, all is
Forgotten just like that
Then wink, the hope
That carefree days
Are to come again
And with that, slowly
Walk away

[Before they see anything else]

Shout For Me

Hearing you's an impossibility
With all the water around
Clouds marking my horizon
I'll slowly swim away

Worse With Time

For each new day
One small remnant
Remains from the past
Getting smaller and
Even vaguer as
Time steals your heart

Why A Lie Is Better

Better to steal a memory
Than make a new one
With anyone, everyone
One grows to two
Then before you realise
It, the albums are full
So is your heart
And when they've left
It's a chest full of
Memories you'll never lose

Hello Goodbye

Hurts to know
How little you care
Help me understand
Happiness for a while

Most Of These

Little lines
Filling lines
Burning time
Why do I bother?

Bite The Curb

Give them a wink
A nod and a smile
So they'll think
You're only gone for a while
Disappear before
Your presence is missed
Footprints on the shore
Washed away before noticed

Pull Over

Just let me out
Already
This car's going
Too fast
And I'm far
Too drive to drunk
That's what the
Twenty straight shots'll
Do to you
Boom, straight to the head
Good night, and fuck off

Little More Than Nothing

It's what hurts
Far beyond the reaches
Of what you knew
Stretching past
Every single emotion
Slipping through the
Sounds of breaking
All around you
It might be a little
More than nothing
But it's enough

Billion Reasons

But I'll take one
As it's all I want
To hear, and proof
Enough

Kneeling In The Dirt

I need the rescue
And I just sent
My s.o.s to the heavens
On the lips of a prayer
Barely enough breath
In it to fly away
I hope it makes it

Vague In Clarity

So I don't know
I mean, I do
Yet I'm sure about it
It could be that
I'm positively sure
I haven't yet
Reached a conclusive
Indecision, sound good?

Beautiful Affliction

Every reason
I lie to myself
Why I can survive
And never be
Broken with you
Because of you
And that's just it
The lie I say
Everyday

Just Breathing

Came hell then high water
I'm still standing
And I can laugh in the face
Of all the wrongs I know
It's sad that I've broken
The last caring part of me

Dare You To

Tell me you remembered me
I dare you to lie like that
Or say you gave a damn
Just try it, it's easy
You only need to change
A single word, and it's
All ok, like it never
Was a problem
So I dare you, I fucking do
To say the line you've
Been saving for me
Say it, say
"I'm sorry"
Oh I dare you to

Lie-lluby

You gave me something to believe in
A breath for the breathing
And I wrote it down, that I don't
Think that I'll close my eyes
Because lately I've been dreaming
That there was no point in sleeping
And so every night, I found somewhere to hide
Sleepless, I wrote you a lullaby
So come and wish me goodnight

Eraser

Does it make everything
Blurred, for you to see?
Erasing anything
Drawn from you and me
Because with these fading days
There's unrest in the waves
Flowing from the radio
And they just make me so
Blurred in mind, in vision
And they bring me down
Right down to the collision
Of the broken soul's sound
Yeah, yeah sing it with me
The broken soul's sound is
All that I've found in
Ever silver lined cloud this
Sky has ever offered

Fall To Nothing

Where did it all go
So very wrong, before
We even had a chance
To heal and hope
I'm sorry I couldn't
Save you before we
Got carried away
With every fight
Every hurt we made
I'm sorry

Heavy On Your Conscience

Weighing you down
Like the thousand
Thoughts you made
That you brought
Into this world
With all you said

Lies

I'll tell them for you
Never to you
Find the truth behind them
Never conceal it with them
Lies, lies, lies
What truth defies
Yet still defines
I'll tell them for you though

One More Incomplete Ballad For The Masses

Would you let me come and save you
From this life of solitude
We could catch the next train coming through
And be gone before they even knew
It's a promise I can't swear to not keep
That I'll fly right in to sweep you off your feet

What's Your Corruption

A half pint of you
Mixed in with
Just a dash of
Trouble that
Won't seem worth
It in the morning
But it's my
Poison, shaken
Not stirred, served
On the rocks
Salut

New Score

Hopefully if I
Can hit the keys
Of this piano just right
I'll play you
Into existence
Into my arms
That've been empty
For so long
Too long

We Were

Somewhere where every word
Passed between us stayed
Just like that, between
The two of us, never
To be heard by another
Ear, or so it seemed
To trust you with me
Is to break me in two
One part for you
A small memento
The other for the ground
To receive as it falls
Yeah, oh yeah, just
As it falls

Deluding Myself

V1.

I was sitting in the park
When I first saw her passing by
With a glimmer in her eye
Betraying every tear she'd cried
She swept right by without
So much as a by your leave, and
With that she stole my heart
Gone in an instant, like a summber breeze

Run Till You Drop

To the setting sun
Falling faster
With every step you make
Slipping over the
Horizon

Good Enough

I'll be anything
The first laugh you had
Or the last tear you cry
Just tell me what you need

Cause I'll Run

Thousands of lights
Shining the way
Blinding movement
Binding thoughts
Now only one light
Remains shining away
And I'm caught
In all faulty glory
This is why
When that light burns out
All you'll hear
Is distancing footfall

Surface

Something
Underneath this
Realistic
Face I've
Always worn
Can you notice
Every crack?

Tuned Right

Turn back to the
Same songs that
Drive me back to
Sanity and safety
There's a comfort
In the way each sound
Pulls a different
Heart string into
The place it belongs

You Know It

Everytime they tell you
That nothing's sacred
Nothing is the way it
Should be, what we lost
Along the way to experience
And wisdom, and was
It all worth it?
I'm hoping it will be

Straight From The Playlist

I think I'll lie
With my ear to the floor
And listen to the beats
That reverberate from
My speakers so small
And hope they can
Comfort me in all this
I'm so sick, chasing the
Feeling, dreaming with
A broken heart, and as I
Wait for the rain, the
New divide that spans
The width of my heart,
Day by day I'll look
For the shooting star
That seems so heartless
In its bids to evade me
I won't apologize for
All my false pretenses
But I still hope
You'll miss me when I'm gone

Breaking Trivialities

Emptiness is what
You're left with
When everything
Around that surrounds
And clouds your thoughts
Becomes whitewashed,
Nothing to be seen
You're all alone
With space to hear
Your echo

Time To Make

All these secrets I'm
So desperate to keep
But holding them in is like
Not being able to sleep
It's such a long drive
Back to town in the night
The streetlights are out
And every sound made
Is coming from you and me
Where we're out of sight
We could talk about
Whatever we want, stories trade

Check the clock again
Thirteen o'clock never came
So fast before, so fast

Hey There

When it tickles your fancy
You'll tune your ears to hear me
Fake your deafness more, come on
I dare you to not hear this
Because some bad news came along
And it's all about you, it is
Meanwhile, you ignore what falls
All around, brilliance in the starlight
Can you hear it, as it calls
Out your name, in this silent night

Over Again

Then he wrote another
Yeah, another love song
Which, in itself
Is just another way
Of saying "I miss you"
Like all the other thousands
A bottle of cliches,
Happiness and heartbreak
Sold for a dollar a download
Let's listen to it
Till we're sick and tired
And want to hear it some more

Moment Of Truth

Sometimes we live a life
That's misguided by directions
We'll go and search for strife
While others crave peace and perfection
Meaningless trivialities
They're bringing us to our knees
Someone ask, sometime soon, please

Why it's getting so hard to believe

Detox

Someday, somehow
I'll cure myself
Yeah, it'll hurt
Like hell, it will
But I know I have
To endure this
To run, run away
Before she breaks
My heart, again
And again

Nothing's Sacred

Wasted effort
Trying to love
What you thought
Was special to you
Isn't to them
It's just a commodity
So really, you should
Know how to pull
Away before it all
Collapses around you
And know full well
She doesn't really
Care how you feel?
Nothing's sacred anymore

They Found

A little piece of you
And a fragment of our past
In the photo album
That lay quietly on the desk
Gathering dust, crumbling too
Rediscovered at long last
Before decay reached them
These pictures of our best
Our worst, highs and lows
The shine in our eyes
Faded now, gray now
Life that was, far gone now
Everything here shows
There's nowhere to hide
Torn now, all around
Life that was, they found it now

Track Thirty-Seven: What They'll Never Take

I never wanted to be here. It’s stupid, really. Really. Who wants to be stuck in their tiny cell, surrounded by these bleak, dull walls. Pah, it’s ridiculous. Really. Day by day, people just roll on in, never mind that guy who’s been there longer than the power switches. Never mind his carvings on the walls, counting down the days to his never arriving freedom. If I think about it, I’m just procrastinating the inevitable: I will die here, right here. Really. This chair will be my coffin, and this cell, my grave. Lodged between the normalities and lack of idiosyncrasies, here lies “X”, a man devoid of integrity, completely incomplete and a God-honest sinner. Pah, it’s ridiculous. If I stay here any longer, I might become just as apathetic as the very walls I’m carving. How ironic, I carve them, but they leave a bigger scar in my life. It’s pathetic. Really. Ha, I remember when Shannon came over to my cell. “What’s up?” he asked me. Isn’t that stupid? What’s up? The ceiling, that’s what’s up. A ceiling that’s blocking every bloody free thought from escaping and blossoming into a true desire, to run free from this damn hell hole, taste the tantalising liberty lingering just a few concrete inches away. What’s up? Stupid, stupid question. Really. You know, the only thing I’ve got going for me is my girl. She’s waiting on the outside for me. She’s all I’ve got left now, and she’s waiting. Really. With her eyes like the summer blue sky, auburn hair like the autumn setting sun, lips as red as the winter rose, her scent sweeter than the spring flowers. Just thinking about her makes me feel, happier? Yeah, that’s it. Happier. She makes me feel happier. I guess that changes things a little. I may still be stranded in this scantily secure slum, surrounded by these stupid scaramouch’s who ask me stupid non sequiturs, but then I just need to think about her, and everything’s ok. She’s waiting for me, she really is. And I can rely on her to be there. Really. But now, now it’s time to leave this absurdism, this surrealistic shithole for a temporary relief. I gather my dribs and drabs, and walk towards those gray, groaning doors. Drearily, deadened gates they are to me. The floor’s thick, thick with channels of people’s “thoughts” and “inspirations”. Pah, that’s blatant, hyperbolised rubbish. You want to know the truth? I’ll tell you, really. They’re all thieves. Plagiarisers. Not a single innovative idea, and yet they’re magnanimous in their “originality”, which they pilfered off someone else. Me on the other hand, I’m nothing but unique. Really. My channel’s nothing but pureness. These channels are like cocaine, really. Some are just filled with all sorts of shit, no potency, watered down to a fraction of their potential. Mine, on the other hand, is as if it’s just been taken from the plant. The tiniest whiff of it’ll knock you flat. Really. You know what though? All of our channels lead to one central nerve, infecting it with diluted drivel. Why do I even bother? It’s not like I want to be recognised is it? Oh no, I just love, love, love being jammed here between nowhere and nothing. Love it, I tell you. Stepping through those severe, grey doors of the elevator almost seem like passing into heaven. Really, it would be, if heaven was four metres high, three metres wide and three metres long. Who knows, maybe it is. Pah. I’m sick of this shit, it’s ridiculous. Really.

[As the elevator doors close, he casts a final glance through the gap at the rows and rows of desks. A small smile quirks the ends of his lips. He knows this is the last time he’ll see this place. The doors close, and so do his eyes. Goodbye, prison – cum – office. The real heaven’s waiting.]

Get This

I just want to sleep
And not wake up again
Ever, because I'm tired
Of trying here

Heartless

No one gives a damn
When you're depressed
Can guarantee they
Only ask out of courtesy

Like You Knew

Asking for a second chance
Is it weak and foolish
Or a moment of strength
Where we can fix the broken

Empty

No more music
Dance is gone
Can't write these for you
Or sing you a song
It's emptiness
I guess

Curbs

What's between me
And the road speeding
Down the distance
There's no stopping it
Just on and on and on
See you later
I'll just keep walking
On these curbs

Lead Me On

Take me somewhere
Anywhere you want
Sound like a plan?
It does to me, and
Here's the kicker
No one gives a damn
Where we are when
We get there

I Imagined You

Flaw of my imagination
That I'd never replace
You're just a blur
In this vision
I'll watch you fade away

Between

What I'm looking for
Is a reason to care
I know there's more
But see how they stare
And you're caught in between
As they take away everything
The life you've seen
Till you can't remember anything

Stage Lights

Flooding the entire world
Here it comes, the
Tidal wave of brightness
Blinding your atmosphere
Feels like, looks like
You were born for this

Mind Over Bullshit

Simple as that, really
It's how I made this
Easier and easier
So don't read me anymore
I don't need the
Sympathy
Empathy
Hypocrisy
Mockery
Just go away

Melancholic's Anonymous

Waking up isn't so easy when you're
Loving a broken dream
Early morning brings no cure
And you're lost it seems
When you fight to stay asleep
Because you're happy where you are
Wondering how you managed to keep
This happiness, this loneliness so far

Like A Toy

After a while
The shelf seems
Like a better place
Than to be picked up
Taken for a spin
To only be put back
And walked away from
Someone buy me please

Atlas

Can save the world
Bear the weight of
Everything on these shoulders
I could be the hero that
They need to be happy
And I don't mind it
But they'll never know
Just how much I need my
Own rescue to come soon

Causeless

Lift me up out of here
Come on, come on
I'm hating these heart throbs
As they beat me senseless
I don't care if darkness is near
So come on, come on
We'll map the route to get lost
And I'm left so defenceless

Lift me up, way up high
I just want to get out of here
You feel me?

If I Ever

Nothing left to do
But fall to your knees
And know that
You were used
Better get back up
Because the next
One is coming fast

Another Runaway

Faster and quieter
Gone in the night
Before dawn could
Notice the absence
Slipping through the fence
Over the hills
And far, far, far away

No One Knows

I saw it in my sleep
The way a dream
Fabricated from times
I wanted them most
Could disappear with just
A burst of colour
A shifting shadow
But I still saw it in my sleep
Or lack of, I guess
Never makes much difference
When I hoped to sleep
I could never dream
I always got lost in morning's early times
And what I needed the most
Wasn't there, but just
A faded colour
A crying shadow
So I don't get much sleep
Same as always, I guess
Shouldn't be much difference

Let's Start Something We Can Call Ours

We jump with
This beat so heavy
Forget a kiss
We're gone already
Drumroll one
Distortion's come
And taken it all
On a shredded
Fretboard, while
A bass line drives
This song straight
To your head and heart

As Always

If words can't
Describe the
Emotions of
The moment
You know you're
In so deep
Way over your head

Burned

Where love's just a word
We don't care, really
Whether it's truly heard
When it's not nearly

Enough to say where
Every pain that we
Endured, and whether
Each day said when

Love would give enough
Leash to breathe for every
Lost breath endured
Love lost me for a while, and I don't want to find my way back home

Sing With Me

Because it gets lonely
When you're playing
In an empty hall
The echoes resound
Through your ears
Straight to your heart
And just continues
To echo along the
Hollow chambers
You want to know
What giving up sounds like?

Every Little Piece

When I've found them all
Every little piece that
Flew in a million directions
After hearing I should
Give up, shouldn't spend
Any more effort on her
The calmness of delivery
Shattered me more than
Anything else did
The truth in the words
I'll never choose to believe
Maybe it's all just a dream
Yeah, that's it
You can wake me up now

Could You Know

The early morning hours
Are so cold and lonely
And this sleep of ours
Is an escape only
Blurry eyes and
Weary minds and
Weakened hearts, my friend
Oh I
Know that she's
Long gone

Mayhem

Complexity of a city
Circulating the criminal
Creed like a calling
For the collective
Culmination of crazes
To crash and create
Mayhem

Stronger

How the hell'd I get here
I need to turn back
These wrinkled pages
To the chapter that's been read
So many times, the tears
And the creases smudged
Every single word there
So I'll rewrite a new one that fits
To make me stronger, save me from this

Incompletely Whole

It's lonely when you know
That you're never missed
Before you realise no one
Really gives a shit you're
Not around anymore

Far Gone

So I'll see you when
You get back I suppose
But maybe then
You won't be alone
There'll be someone
Else next to you instead
I hope they're the one
Who holds you like I said
I would

So Unsure

Whether or not the
Fingers that locked
With mine that night
Really meant anything
At all, because they're
Slipping away to someone
Elses hand

And Then

We fall like the
Leaves in autumn time
Bruised and battered
By the wind as our
Descent takes us away
To a place where
We'll make our home
Again, again, again

So when all the
Streets are lined
With souls scattered
You came and found
Me, one in the red array
And held me with care
Reminder I wasn't alone
And then, and then, and then

Well, that's it really, want to finish the story for me?

Still Here

I tried out everything
Repaired your broken wings
Helped you fly away without
So much as a goodbye kiss so
I'll forget everything
In this very song I'll sing
And pray there's nothing to miss

Fuck All

Yeah it's trouble when
Waking up is just so
Pointless, and the
Reasons you had are
Lost with the light
Of the damn dawn

Sunburn II

You're beautiful
No matter what
You do to me
There's not a
Single day I
Regret being
In your light
That gives me
Hope that a
Love can still
Exist, but in
Spite of all the
Bright satisfaction
I burn deeper
Than ever before
All for you, while
You never know

I'll always ask you
To be my
Paradox

Shouldn't

Give a shit, but
Let's be frank
If you took
A step forward
Then got shoved
Five back, you'd
Be as cut as I
Am right now
Right?

Wish You Could Here It

And nothing pulls
My heart like the
Playing of the keys
Black and white
For the wonderful
Breaking that I
Release in a small
Harmony for you

Sleepless II

Eyes that refuse to close
Till they're red from tears
Sleep escapes, elusive most
Laughing, mocking fears
Sleepless in July, cry the night away

Every thought is broken
Torn apart before their release
Strung high up in the open
Left to crumble in the breeze
Sleepless in July, watch the night away

Evening came and left me here
The irony is that I found it
Still, with each hour near
Lost is sleep to life's bandit
Sleepless in July, till the break of day

Finally

There's nothing quite like this
Watching the night sky in bliss
Forgetting for a short while
Every unhappiness that I'll
Remember, and my mind walks
Back to our lonely talks
Now lost in the world we returned to
Made to hide every trace of you
But still, there's nothing quite
Close enough to compare that night
Or this one

Hologram

No matter how many
Sides I try to look
At you, it's as though
Each view is different
To the next, ever
Changing, puzzling
Intriguing me further

The Useful And The Used

Here when you need me
But apart from that I'll
Just wait in the corner
To be picked up again
And that's the way
It always has been
And always will be

Pursuit Of All I Don't Need

Chase it, because I just need
Every useless dream to keep
A motivational spark each week
Within in me, a reason to breathe
Just to wake up and seek
These stupid repetitions, so
Even if they make me feel as though
Nothing can take away this weight, and know
Another desire to drive me to go
Justify
Why
I
Try?

Hide Away

Hopefully, I'll find
Relief in the dark
Sleep a while and
Wait for this
State of mind to
Turn and leave
Me alone

Pulse

I love heavy music
How it beats and
Pounds out every
Damn misconception
And pent up frustration
Remnants of emotion
Pressure of passion
Can you feel it
Can you
Can you
Can you?

Apathy's Hilarious

I swear if there's ever
Another war, they
Better just take me
Out and stick me in
Front of a firing squad.
I wouldn't object

- Catcher In The Rye

Glare

When all I see is
This blinding
Confining, shining
Light, that doesn't
Guide my way,
It just, like everything
Else, blurs up my
Vision

Close To

A small matter of
One step over the
Ledge, trust me I'm
Contemplating it
These last few dark
Nights, because the
Winds have changed
They don't sing like
They used to, instead
They cry with the
Rain as it falls
Deep down into the
Valleys around

Literally Speaking

Pretty close I'd say
That blade looks
Awfully sharp to
Me, but maybe if
The mood takes me
On a little dance
Around the back
And back to the
Front from the inside
Out, there see?
Already distracted

Wonder Why

I bother sometimes
When the choice is
Made before I can
Gain a fingerhold or
Even touch it, so
It's tempting to say
"Fuck it all", but
But I think a little
Harder, and I come
To the same conclusion
That hopefully
Hopefully
I won't be scarred again

Next Move

Should I slip the mask
Back on, the one I
Pulled off those months
Before, where a smile
Could protect me
In an instant, and
A laugh was my shield
Because I'm done with
Being the vulnerable
Hearing these voices
Echoing through the air
All I want to do is
Hide, and know I won't
Be ever missed
So, is this the next move

Quietly Now

The song plays just for you
Or so it seems to be
And the feeling that
Jolts through your every
Nerve, as you sway
From side to side
But yeah, maybe it's
Only for the moment
I don't really know

So Sick

If I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of these tears

I'd break the radio
Along with the answering machine
So I wouldn't think of you
But I still do

Go Where?

He said to me, he said
"I'm going in the dawn
Because no one'll ever
Notice that I'm gone
There's not a single
Reason to stay here
Except to sweep up
All my broken tears
I'll leave a note just to
Say there's no reason why"
And with that he left
While I waved myself goodbye

And All Say

I miss my piano
The simple black
And white keys
That could play
My fears away

I miss the songs
The ones that crack
And break to pieces
The strength I made
With words they say

Bejeweled

There's you and I
Standing in the moonlight
And how it shines
Reflected in your eyes
Locked with mine

Hope You Read This

You're closer than
I thought I'd let you
In, and now I'm scared
That you'll slip through
My fingers like a wave
Washed up on this beach
I've been walking for
So long, so very long
I don't know where
I'm going or what
I'm doing, but I know
I felt sparks

What They Say

Is a quiet word
Builds you up
Or breaks you down
And all can be
Lost or gained
In that same breath

Don't Care

As if you know
No one does
You always think
More of yourself
Or your hurts
Regarding not me
Ever

It's In A Touch

Electric, this spark between
Erratic, my movements seem
Ecstatic, the rapture of this dream
It's just a fingertip
Upon another
But that's all you need
To pass a charge
From you to me

My Twin

Who'll awake him
The past of my life
Shining bright
Cuts me like a knife
Knows every secret
Sin and vice
Oh, my twin
My brother, my blood
Sleep a little longer
Your time will come
But just for now
Rest in peace

Hundred Questions

I want to ask you
All of them, but
I'll still have so
Many begging to
Be heard and
Answered, can
You find the time
Or the heart
To stay with me?

Useless Repitition

If I listen to this song
This same, same song
Over and over again
Would it stop the pain?

Again

And when you finally learn
That nothing's built to last
Then comes the slow turn
Back around to the past

Welcomes you back with arms
Open in the cold embrace
Like the first love and her charms
You recall so well the face

Masking memory so distant
Times come and gone
Well, now they're reminiscant
Of what you want undone

Sometimes We

Want nothing more than
A quiet place to sit
Some privacy in a crowd
Hollow room in a flooded house

And if we fall, we can
Wish away every bit
As it's all just a mirage so loud
Yeah, all in this flooded house

Distraction

So if I ever wanted to
Open my eyes beyond the
Narrow scope of unrest's view
Give me a reason to turn

From stupid mistakes and
Overt scars of late, can this
Reason alone save me now?

How it does make me happy, though
Escaping in words written
Release for me, a song for her, something to make us smile

To Sleep

A quiet lullaby
To help me fall away
Into the world where
That sole song
Expresses these
Distresses of late
Gently strumming
Humming away
And with each
Crooked arpeggio
I remember why
She forgets me in
A heartbeat when
She finds another
So all I want now
Is for this quietest
Of lullabies tonight
To cradle me till

[Till I'm whole again]

Locked Away

Slide the door shut
I don't want to be
Seen
Not like this, not
In such a frail
State of mind
I need a heart
Who'll care for
Me, no matter
What I do, I just
Want to feel loved
Not like I've
Been
In the past, and
Now, but I can
Only hope quietly
So please just
Close the damn
Fucking door

Heaven's Embrace

She slips through the trees
A vesper, twirling twixt
Clouds lined with golden rays
Of sunlight, desperate to
Break through, shine on
She laughs though, a silent
Yet entrancing voice
And she swirls, graceful
Caressing all she passes
All sway in her presence
The strongest are weak
In her embrace

So when the wind blows
The cradle will rock
Rock a bye, rock me to sleep

Evenings We're Alone

There's only so much we're designed to handle
A limit to our strength, the capacity to survive
With a smile for every day and every occasion
Then when someone asks, "Hey friend, how have
Things been going for you, is all right with
Your world, and are you happy?"
It's hard to not struggle for breath
And reply with the straightest of faces
In a cheery tone of imperfect concealment
That life is nothing but bliss and contentment
No hassles at all, to plague or beleaguer
After some idle chit chat, a while of useless
Exchanges, crawl back home, home into bed
Bed and just cry, cry, cry
Because there's no drive, drive, drive
And all that's left to do
Is cry
Cry
Cry

Slow Dance

I really did want to
With you
Because you feel right
In my arms
Just us and a track
Bare feet, my hand
On your back
Sharing our palms
Dancing together, tonight
With you
I still really want to

Lost Within

Now I ask myself
Over and over again if
There's any sincerity
Hidden in these words
In my tears and my
Numbing pains
God, does anything remain

Baby, there's a reason
Underneath all this treason
That I'm singing these lines

Look into these blurry eyes
If you can even hold my gaze
Establish a place there, and then
Simply throw me away

Symphonic

Tap tap, all instruments rise
We want them to feel our
First emotion of welcoming
Joy and elation, so we swell
With strings of sweet serenade
Swirling the soundwaves within
This hall till all are at peace
Then the verbrato of looming
Excitement, it's coming with
Every trill and then
The percussion of a thousand
Stampedes! Crashing, riding
On every beat, in sync with
The heartbeats that course
Through your body, keeping
You alive, alive, alive
Now, they will feel our
Burning desire, deepest
Angers, most craven fears
All within this simple score
Written out of nothing
But blood, sweat and tears

And then the lone piano
Quietly dispells a tiny plea
To be heard amongst
All the noise

Rise, take a bow. It's over

Would You

Sit a little while here with me
We can count the stars
Sitting in this lonely tree
See how they shine, shine afar
There's one for you, one
For me, it's that one there
Falling down, down from
The blanket of night's stare
This is beautiful, nothing but
I wish you could sit here
A little while for once with me, just
Not care about our fears
Yet I know you're away some
Where I can't reach you
Beyond the stars, you've run
To another's arms, after all we
Have been through

Soul Tie

It can kill you if
It's with the wrong
Person

It could make you
Whole again, anew
If it's with the right
Person

So what happens when
This person is so wrong
That it's right to love them
And all they do, regardless
Of how they hurt you
How you feel like
You've failed so many times
Sacrificed so much, all for this
Person

Such is the dilemma
Of a soul tie

When She Cries

I break a little inside
Because I can't make it better
I know she tries to hide
Everything, but I can't let her
Just get hurt, again and again
She doesn't care what happens
But I do, and she calls me insane
And pretends like it doesn't matter

Desparation

Where do you turn, when it all
Falls apart, as everything you
Knew to be the normal or the
Regularities simply split in
Half, then half again, again and
Again?

Regret In A Bottle

Twist the cap off
And just drink
Away every heart
Throb and misery
Make a toast
For the fuckers who
Broke a promise
Then tried to
Apologise, how sad
They are, cough
Up a little blood, I think
I've had too much, can't
Think straight, pity
Cause the most
I'll ever lose
Won't topple this
Bottle in my hand

But I'm completely
And utterly
Soberly, drunk

Look For You

Between the lines
Of every lyric
Within the hidden
Mysteries, subliminal
Messages and rhymes
Where the only critic
Is a forbidden
Criss cross, criminal
In act, yet a sign
A mark of a hypocrite
Constantly kidding
Himself that the minimal
Penance is a lifetime
Where he can mimic
Whilst remain bed ridden
Play make believe, that he's finished the search finally, for

Someone?

Sitting On The Porch

Watch the shooting star!
Descending from the sky
Hurtling through time and space
Messenger of a kingdom far
The tear as heaven might cry
For a world that's lost its place

Watch the falling rain!
How it crashes, countless
Collisions awakening the earth
Washing away all pain
The redemption boundless
Cleansed in this blessed rebirth

Listen to the wind blow!
Calling, howling refrain
Slipping through the break
In the facade that we know
Like the moon will wax and wane
It erodes all sorrow, all mistakes

Listen to the voices!
Their unison, such unison
Pulling at your heartstrings
Blurring out all other noises
That tear at our elation
Listen! Listen as they sing!

A Name's Worth

Just a little something to pass the time
And break away from depressing lines
Needless to say, she's special in
Every single way you can imagine

Track Thirty-Six

Welcome to the Window.

I hate heartbreak. Every single form of it. You know why? Because it really holds true to its name. Break. When you break something, it doesn't matter how hard you can try to fix it, there are always going to be the cracks for all to see. Healing does happen, and only with time. I heard in a song that you cannot break the broken, and quite honestly, I'd have to agree. You can't break them, but you sure as hell can crush them. It's easier too, because the original resistance that existed is simply not there.

There's that feeling where the lump rises in your throat, and your arms and legs go weak. You clench your teeth, to try stay strong, to resist that overwhelming sense of defeat. You crumble from the inside, a shell with a dusty inside that's so fragile it'll take the smallest of knocks to crack it. Then you bite your lip, you can't scream, shout, sob, because people will know something's wrong. Go on, bite it till there's blood. Eyes welling up with tears you swore you'd never let fall again, constantly beating against the dams of your eyes. Blink to stem the flow, try it. It might just work if you concentrate really hard. Clench your fists, feel them shake with the effort that just doesn't seem worth it.

Then.

Break.

I can't keep smiling for too long, so smile for me.

=]

Cliches Are All I Have Left

No once to catch
Me when I collapse
This rain, it's just
Beating me down
Weighing me down
Hear the sound

As I fall beneath
The burden of all
Of all, of all, of all
Then you call
And your voice
Helps me breathe

Then pulls me
Out of the depths
From underneath
The wreckage
But I'm broken in your arms
And you break me again

So when I'm broken
Breaking, crumbling
Blown away in the wind
Will you remember?

Cover

Over me, more ways than one
Shielding me from the setting sun
Concealing all that comes undone
Masking that which wishes to run
I hide within this, darkest mist
Eyes empty of tears I've missed
Rage clenched tightly in my fist
Urge to break, feel hopeless bliss
A sleeve to hide, the lowest pride
From one, grew twelve more, I lied
The front, back, on each and every side
Two inches long, a hairsbreadth wide
And when I've aged beyond my years
Escaped all of my impending fears
I'll cry my cries upon deaf ears
Praying, hoping someone hears
I see you, you can't see me
I'll try save you, while you ache to be free
You want this help, yet cut me so deeply
This is why I find comfort in shadows, see?

[Blackness all around, all around, till nothing remains]

Impossibility

No, I don't sleep till three in the morning
Or four, five, six when the dawn's breaking
Tell me, is it normal, to stay awake
Heavy in though and mind of nothing but
Images and memories and integrities
Numberless possibilities and lies to lead
Glowing in the darkness so calming

Thousands, they said, thousands of reasons
Only one really matches

Let me imagine it for a little while
In this semi-catatonic state
Vapour of an existence I'll
Evade the truth as long as it can wait

From it all, I don't want to live
Or die, either way it's a chance to give
Rise to a sleep that's permanently affective

Past And Present Scars

Whether they're from a day
Or a month, a year ago
Reality is, that the price to pay
Slowly catches up, you know
Even when they're so faint

Why? Oh I don't really understand
It's just a simple scratch to take
That reminds me, when it can
How to not make the same mistake

Everyone sees every one
And every one feels like hell
Can't they just fade in the sun
Heal with time, that only tells

Could you give me a reason
Undermine my insanity
To save myself?

Rising

There's something deep
Inside, within me, swelling
Growing whilst I sleep
This darkness quelling
Living, breathing thoughts
I once knew and dreamt
Of happiness, all sorts
Now scattered, unkempt

Track Thirty-Five

Welcome to the Window.

As always, it's been a long, long time since I last made a Track, but to be completely honest, I just couldn't be bothered. There's so much happening, so many issues clogging my mind that it's literally impossible to find the time to sit down and write something like this. Well, now it's holidays, and I've sort of run out of excuses.

I'm not saying I've also come to the end of my issues. Far from it. On the contrary, my nice little irritations just keep getting bigger and bigger, but at least I'm staying positive! Well, outside anyway.

I don't want to keep doing this all the time. By this, I mean feeling like I have to wait to get hurt. It's along the lines of sitting on the train tracks watching a train coming towards you at a hell of a speed. I can hear it, I can feel the tremors rumbling through the tracks, I can see the blinding headlights telling me to move, and yet I just can't. A smart boy, that's what I am.

Give me a reason to justify
All these different reasons burning
I just want this pain to nullify
Disappear like a passion yearning

Take it easy everyone, and keep smiling =] Even if it looks like there's no way out.

Crystal Moment

Everything's so clear
Oh everything, every
Single damn thing
Refracted in the
Gleaming starlight

Disassociation

"So fucked up, that's what you are
Who does that sort of thing?
I don't want to know someone
Like this, with such pretty patterns
I never saw them from afar
But now I'm closer, does it sting?
Each and every single one
All over, I can see them scatter
So fucked up, that's what you are"

Sunburn

You're beautiful
In everything
That you do
You give me the
Light I need
To live, thrive
And yet no matter
I still burn deeper
Beyond recognition
Because of you
Paradox

I Hate This

Use me because it's fun
This distraction
You forget
In a fraction
Of a heartbeat
I want to forget
In a fraction
Of that same
Heartbeat
Every memory
Of you

Never Mind, Never Mine

She slips away from me
Again and again
Vanishing into the sea
Ever crashing

My vice she has become
Even though she'll be the death of me

Fumbling with confusion
Rocked from head to toe, if
Only she wasn't the illusion
My mind longed for

Tonight, she forgets once more
How much, just how much
I truly, stupidly, cut to the core
Save me from this

This Night Is Ours

Built from nothing at all
A pile of mere imagination
Crafted with blood, sweat and tears
Four years, enduring all
Ridicule, hatred, segregation
Developing into grudging
Respect, shock, awe
This night, we came
We saw, the lights flashed
We conquered

Collect And Connive

From this sheath
Draw that which you
Took from him
And just drive it
To the hilt into
My back

Who Belongs

You, in the white shirt
Stand over there where
We can see you in your
Stupidity of naivety
Mock that which you
Worked so hard to
Build whilst trapped
Within a life that
Will never appreciate
All you do

Fool To Think

Understatement of a lifetime
Justification no other will hear
And
That's it

Bruise

Black, with a tinge of blue
A little shade of sadness
Masking the hue
Of the original gladness
We'll find comfort from this

Crime For Fun

Steal this
Break it, quick
Vandal is my name
The thrill of it all
Hear the outrage
Whine of sirens
Screaming my name
It's applause, it is

Born In Sunshine

Light of a shadow
Creeping through the
Dark and dim, hallowed
In stories to tell
Kissed by the rays
Beaming down so bright
From the vast arrays
Of stars this night

Practice Made Prejudice

It's drilled into the mindset
Of a twisted insanity
Adjudicated by one who
Blatantly recreated a truth
Lost, souless, vile,
Slippery tongued tenacity

West Is The New East

In the times where right
Is the new wrong
And the safety light
Will never belong
Amongst the darkest hours
These streets so cold
Cracked homes of ours
Happiness sold
North turned south
And this world is turning
Slowly, slowly
Away from You

Make It Easy

Just someone to love me too
Was all I wanted her to be
But she never ever knew
How or why she hurt me
And with each cut I bleed
From, another escape route
It's become more than a need
Still, these scars suit
Me down to the ground
Because they remind
Every day, and without a sound
Make it easy to rewind

In It All

I'll walk away from this
With nothing but an
Emptiness, it's bliss
Once you push past
The fact you're not missed

Art Of Breaking

As quietly as you can
Without them hearing you
Shout in a voice of static
That cascades waves of noiseless
Mishaps and
The loudest crack, the split-two
Of a broken heart in an attic
Above the bliss, belonging to the voiceless

Reasons

You want reasons
Why my restless mind steals my sleep away
Why these dark thoughts keep me this way
Trapped inside a cage built to house the insane
Why my arm's carved in more ways than one
Why I try convince myself that the end hasn't come
And there's nowhere I can run
You really want the reasons?

The Slam

Turn over the tables
In a rage so blind
You'll cut all the cables
Linked to you from behind
Holding you back
From that ledge so close
Yeah, I know you want to jump
I dare you
This is it, the decision to make
This is the slam

Anthem For The Lost

Good for a distraction
Forgotten in a second's fraction
No one remembers the lost

Hold on till you can walk alone
Once you're steady and strong
Push away from brought you along
Everyone forgets the lost

He tries so hard to be everything
She needs, only to be second to nothing
Nothing's name is someone else
And he's placed back on the shelf
He joined the lost

Graffitification

Take this can
Make my presence known
You'll see me everwhere
You go, I'm watching you
Through this paint
On the walls and the billboards
Floating high above
Or down below it all
I'll make sure
You see me

Vague In Clarity

Can hear the words
They aren't flowing
Like they should be
Can feel this melody
It isn't flowing
The way it could be
Can see this image
That's not flowing
How it would be
Then it all makes sense
Yeah, makes sense now

Helpless

A spark of pretences
Lighting up your lies
Consuming my sense
What my life relies
On

Mine

They're all objects of affection
Shining in the light of
You, my very own affliction
All I ever think of
Mine

Bullets

Hit one
She lied
To you
Hit two
She promised to
Never again
Hit three
When you can't find
It in you to trust
Hit four
The one that kills you

False Pretext

Who do I think I am
That I could do this to myself
Hate myself to the degree
That indifference has become
The third most used mask
In my entourage of faces
Preceded by happy and helpless
But who cares anyway
It's funny, right?

Hoarse

Scream till you're
Cry till you're
Shout till you're
Laugh till you're
Sing till you're

Till you can't anymore

Cry In A Tune

When a quaver becomes your tears
And the forte the swell of hate
That's building with the crescendo
Of the glissando rippling through your heart
Accents of aggression, legato fears
Subtly slinking through the sheets
With a broken arpeggio that echoes
Every shattered chord you made

You're left with this song

Underdog

In a race where
To win is to have
And victory means
No pain for loss
There's no fairness
In being an underdog

Rip Another One

That's just what I want to do
Grab a hold of the nearest anything
Bare hands, nothing more to prove
Tear apart everything
I need to release this tension
It's building
And this dissension
It's crippling
I'll force myself away from you
Before you know I'm gone

Phone Talk

Up till three a.m.
It's lonely when you're sleeping
Talking till the clock turns p.m.
As the dawn comes in creeping

Fall Like So

'Cause when you say words
They fall apart so quickly
I don't know why it's so absurd
That I stumbled so swiftly
Not just for the sake of these lines
But I'm torn apart inside
Should have seen the signs
Known you've lied

[I'm stupid as always]

Below The Low

There's some point you reach
It seems to be too far beyond
Your capacity before you breach
The fine line between right and wrong
It's to question if you truly
Have a place right here to belong
Whilst all around you it's so unruly
Like hell's so quickly come and gone
But don't let it get to your head
That there's hopelessness in this song
There's still so much left to be said
So hold my hand and just come along
With me, 'cause this journey's lonely
And no matter how lost we are among
All the ins and outs of this life only
We can look back at the past and say
So long
Without a backwards glance

Beautiful - Eminem

Lately I've been hard to reach
I've been too long on my own
Everybody has a private world
Where they can be alone
Are you calling me?
Are you trying to get through
Are you reaching out for me
I'm reaching out for you

In my shoes, just to see
What it's like, to be me
I'll be you, let's trade shoes
Just to see what it'd be like
To feel your pain, you feel mine
Go inside each others minds
Just to see what we'd find
Look at shit through each other's eyes
But don't let them say you ain't beautiful
They can all get fucked
Just stay true to you

Rivet Of A Life

'Cause that's where I'm stuck
I don't want to be here, mind you
And the quickest escape
Would most likely be
My biggest mistake
I could possibly make
So possibly with a bit of luck
I'll leave before too soon
Then I can hold your hand
Without anyone knowing
Who or why we do what we do
Nothing between it all
First thing's first though
I need to know who you are

Secondhand Seperation

Fill ins and cut outs
Of illusionary illustrations
Reflected in the brightest
Eyes you'll ever see
Vaguely reminding me
Every single moment
Reasons I'm the second

Because

No one'll ever love you like I do
In a million years, always and forever
No one can ever break me like you
But I'm still here, same as ever
Because when you cry
Because when you smile
Because, because, because
I haven't got a reason

Twelve In The Evening

What songs can make you weak
At such a ridiculous hour
Culmination of every
Emotion too heavy
To ever need to speak
Of, locked between our
Dying hearts so nearly
Broken in glass shards clearly
Reflected on the sleeves
Of the surface we wear

Unforgettable

I don't want to listen to this song tonight
Yet here it is playing right into my ears
All I wish to do is sleep properly for one night
Not have to teeter on the brink of tears

Apologize - OneRepublic

I take another chance
Take a fall, take a shot for you
I need you like a heart needs a beat
But it's nothing new
I loved you with a fire red
Now it's turning blue
And you say
Sorry like the angel
Heaven let me think was you
But I'm afraid

It's too late

New Divide

In every loss
In every lie
In every truth
That you deny

Razorblade Tattoo

How I ease my frustration
With a little bit of carvery
Cut a new revelation
A new pattern of mastery
To control the pain
Try forget what caused this
That I'll hide with such shame
But easy eyes will miss
And my arms run red with ink
This is what I'm making
An escape, so I need not think
How to keep faking
Just release

Little Secret

This is what's killing us
You don't talk, I don't know
All the while it's killing us
And I'll never let it show
Until you notice somehow
When I'm gone

The Reason

You want to know why I can't sleep?
Why my insomnia's not a medical trauma
It's the lies that I hear, that I'm forced to keep
Because they're told so I'm not hurt, no drama
But it's bullshit, you hear me, fucking bullshit
Don't lie, don't ever fucking lie
Do you want to know it
The reason why?
You want to know why I've got red raw wrists
Why I've bled till I'm dizzy and passing out
All because my friends just have to insist
On lying to my face, so I never know about
The bullshit they do, behind my back
And it's the reason
The reason
No other, really
That I'm like this right now.

Fuck you all, you'll never read this anyway.

The Way Shit Is

I can't trust a single person
Because a lies a commodity
You would've thought I'd learned my lesson
And not become a casualty
To the bullshit gallantry
That I was raised with every day
But people stab you silently
In the back while you pray
They all call me a liar
As I fight wars that aren't mine
Cause the truth's not the truth
It's whatever they define
It to be, and I'm fed up
With the fucking complaints
People just won't ever shut up
When they're wrong, and in pain
One person says "He did this"
While another "No he didn't"
Well I'm sick of this shit
It's not my problem is it?
But I'll keep pushing along
For a friend of so long
While they don't realise
That I'm the one with tears in my eyes
These social politicians
Who think that what they say goes
Manipulate me to their positions
Then lie to me, when I need to know
Is it hard to tell the truth
Or do you want a fucking pay cheque
To do the job you've been born with
To say it right, to save my breath
Now I'm strung up so high
Because I'm left here to die
For a reason so stupid
I can't believe I didn't see through it
Don't feed me the sorry's
I don't want your apologies
Just get out of my sight
Before I kill myself this very night
This frustration, it's tainted
With bullets and fragments
Of every single stupid mistake
That you made in the past and
I don't want to care anymore
Can't you get it in your head
But if I don't, then there's all
The consequences instead
So I'll smile for another day
Breakdown inside, as they say
All the shit behind my back
For my sacrificial ways
And I can't even admit
If it's worth it at all
But who really gives a fuck
What I'm thinking at all
So now do you get it?
I'm borderline insane
Maybe I'll grab a gun and
Blow a hole right through my brain
But who'll miss me when I'm dead
That stupid fucker who didn't side
With anyone, but instead
Tried to bring peace and quiet
No one ever really cares though
Because the guns and knives are out
And this shit'll pop off, so
Let's just forget about it now

When You Know

I can't hold it in much longer
I know I was meant to be stronger
But now I know what I know
And I've heard what I've heard
My despair's starting to show
You'd have thought I'd learned

Like Toy Soldiers

Step by step, heart to heart
Left right left, we all fall down
Like toy soldiers
Bit by bit, torn apart
We never win, but the battle rages on
For toy soldiers

Before The Murder

All you heard
Was that scream
Before the gunshot
After that
You wonder to yourself
If silence is really golden

War

This isn't my fight
Yet I'm stuck here in the middle
Waving the only white flag
Seen for miles on end
You hate this, they hate that
Everyone shoots their gun
Bullets flying into the no-man's-land
And the irony is
That all of them hit me and my little flag
My little white, white flag
Just stop it, damn you all

Another Autumn Day

I tried to see it
This hype, the joy
All of what they said
It would be for me
Instead, I lost it
Nothing but white noise
Was in my head
But I'm still eighteen
It's as good as eight
With Everything Extra that's uNecessary

Because You Break

Without weakness, strength isn't here
So when we're devoid of wholeness
Brokenness can't plague us
Immunity exists in our minds
We strengthen with each day
And as we do, death isn't as frightening

In the times where sorrow's near
I'll hold you close from the coldness
Of a dark night, just trust
Me, I'll be nothing but kind
Look into my eyes, as I say

[Because you break, I'll be stronger]

Tearing

It's what I'm feeling
This incessant need
To release this rage
Beat pounds as I'm kneeling
Off these chords I'll feed
Shatter this empty cage
Such emotion this music's stealing
As the amplifier's bleed
Behind me on the pulsing stage

Chapter Ten

Once again, the day passed in a blur. It's crazy, the more I think about school, the faster it seems to slip by. So I reasoned that if I think about it all the time, maybe I might just be able to enjoy this year.

You know what the best part of the day was though? Kicking back in my chair once I got home, slipping on the good ol' headphones, and letting my music just carry me away. There's nothing left to think about, nothing to worry me, not a single thing to give me hell. Just the music and me.

That's how it always should be.

As I let the music play, I gazed out of my bedroom window, over to the hill at the end of the street. The sun was beginning to set, and the familiar golden rays began playing on the grass, tiny glass shards reflecting the light in every direction. I knew that I was hoping to see Zahra, I won't deny it. She wasn't there though, just the hill and the sun, nothing more.

"Screw this." I said to myself, and with that, I pulled off my headphones, grabbed my jacket and headed downstairs to go to the hill. I needed to get some air anyway.

Well, that's what I was telling myself. Purely for the fresh air. Purely.

Give Me A Reason

If I wanted
Just to jump right here
From the ledge I'm on
And then I'd fall
Beyond anyone's reach
Can you give me the reason

She

My only one to know
Of all my ins and outs
The rights and wrongs
Her words to calm and heal
Everyday will I
Remember

Who Do I

Someone's staring
Endlessly gazing
Evading the surface

I've remembered why
No one remembered me

This is the reason
He's standing there
Ever pulling me back

Move a little, just to the side
I want to be seen
Revealed so I can be
Recognised in some way
Only a little though
Realisation shows scars

Broken Chords

These don't belong to me
They're written for her
To hear this heartbreak
One note at a time
Rippling through the pages
Of this simple score

Rooftops

They rise high above
Thirty, forty, fifty floors
Break your neck just to see
That one small figure
Arms outstretched
Battling the breeze
Standing on the rooftops
Scream your heart out

Stay With You

It's what friends do
So late at night
Or early in the morning
I'll stay with you

When you're lonely
Just because
No reason to give
I'll stay with you

If I need you
You'd do the same
So the least I can do
I'll stay with you

In A corner

Just sit and watch
As the traffic goes by
Listening to the beat
Beat beat beat
Of the city life
It's empty and hollow
Devoid of purpose
But still goes on
Beat beat beat

Ask God

Why we cry at night when there's nothing to cry for
Why the boy shot his friend who had no reason to die or
Why in every single line, there's a misconceived lie
Why to try and save time, we'll twist from side to side
Where did all the peace go, why do we still hate so
Where should you run to, why're you even staying low
Where is the one to save us, why can't we see them through the strife
Where do children who die go, why can't they live a full life
When are You coming again, what do we need to know
When is there world peace, what's all this hatred we show
When will a real cure for sickness come, what can medication do
When can we run free in the streets, what can bring us to You
What is love when it's fake, where's integrity gone
What's a fight for it's sake, where's the brotherly bond
What do children learn in school, where it's so corrupt
What can we do to provide, where greed's so easy to come up
Who do we ask?

Where It Went

Somehow, somewhere
Lost amidst the static
We lost something
So subtle to see
Yet so simple to
Slip away

As You Fall

Smile and know
There's one waiting
Below to catch you
Through the mist you flow
No more hesitating

Out Of Tune

Listening to all the wrong songs
For all the right reasons
Not because I want to
But something's drawing my hand
To press play again and again
A useless ballad
Crying out for more

Colder Than Static

How it travels
This feeling crackling
Prickling my spine
Thousands of sparks
Cold as ice
Puncturing my system

But I wouldn't have it any other way.

Fuck Up

All I ever was
All I ever am
All I ever will be

Comprende?

Flame On

In this night
Nothing burns brighter
Than your light
Heart of a fighter

Second Place

So you don't know
I won't tell you
Because second
Is better than third
But staying stuck
Behind someone else
Kills me to be
But you'll never know
I won't tell you
Because I'll lose you
If I did

Stolen

Guilded lights
In city heights
Dizzying in the night
Whilst you fight
For breath tight

Running hands high
Holding your prize
What you stole
To survive

Roller

A dollar for every day
A day for every frustration
A frustration for every fray
A fray for every hesitation

If I had a dollar
I'd be a high roller

Song In This

And life's just another
Worthless ballad
Told by Romeo
To the Juliet
Who won't, just won't
Bloody get down
From the balcony

Fraying, Flaying, Flanging

It's coming now
Faster than you know
Gonna blitz you from each side
Every which way you look
This hypnotic, triptoxic
Mix of every riff raff
Bullets for my head
And damn it feels so good
This tearing, wrenching melody
Cuts to the core of what I need
It's coming now
Louder than before
Blazing from speakers each side
No matter where I look
It's my tonic, my chronic
You do the math
Lifting my spirits leaden
And damn does it feel good
As it blazes within me
Tearing away at my needs

Heartbreak Clicker

There's one in the door
Leaving before
Anything more
Can come too quick
Click

This one will agree
It's not she
Who could ever be
More than a trick
Click

Watch her leave
Try not to grieve
Her fingers with yours weave
And all you'll hear
Is another click

Click click
Fucking sound
Echoes in my life
One, two, twenty-true
One comes, two go
Click click click

Afraid Of The Dark

Would you, just for tonight
Stay here with me
And hold me in my fright
Be scared with me
Sing me to sleep till first light
So twisted shadows I'll not see
Stretching from the moonlight
Begging, aching to be free

So just this one night
Don't let go of me

Cradle To The Grave

Wake, rise up
Stronger now
Building more
Caring less
Love some here
Hate a few
Broken heart
Broken soul
Heal in time
Scar remains
Finding one
Takes the life
Keep searching
Hold her tight
Grasp her hand
Kiss her lips
Run away
To the end
Fall asleep

This Room

I can watch the sunrise
It's just beautiful
I can see the stars shine
They're so beautiful
I heard your voice that night
It was so beautiful
And all of these
I can watch and remember
From this room

Play That Track

All I seem to want
Is make myself feel
Like she needs someone else
She would want anyone
But me, myself and I
And I'll lay another record
On the twisting turntable
That plays a lonely melody
Consoling me into sleep

Walking away, put on a happy front
Don't let her steal
My dignity from myself
I'll fool everyone
But me, myself and I
And I'll place a final record
On the broken turntable
Straining out a melody
Robbing me of sleep

We Like It Like This

Ignore me
And what I say
It's mostly
My escape
When I need
Somewhere sane

Run Away

Get me lost
In the comfort
Of every sound
That plays now
I know the cost
But I need it
Before she comes around
Hide me now

Less You Know

So I'll fade into a distant memory
From a once off meet, to a forgotten
One of those we knew, never too well
Because more means less for those
Whom we need to cherish
And less means more for you
To pass on to those you love

So once I've faded from memory
From our first meet, now forgotten
One which I'll remember so well
Because you weren't just one of those
Whom I wouldn't want to cherish
And hold, just tell you
That it's you I love

Crush Crush

How we all start out
Where most will fall
And where I'm stuck
But it's just a crush, right?

Prescription Medication

If I'm sick, I'll take a pill

Or maybe fall asleep

Illness seek, destroy and kill

So my health may keep

But someday when my pills run out

The bottle lying empty

I'll take a knife and cut around

The sickness, in self pity

Just Another

When stories have it all right
The endings written to perfection
Doesn't it make you wonder
If you could have such a life
Holding hands on the beach at night
A picture to add to the collection

Chapter Nine

Mondays. Everyone's either happy to be back at school, seeing all their friends, discussing the weekend assignments, or depressed, pissed off and far behind in their work. Mentally, I began to check boxes as I proceeded to my locker.
Happy to be back at school? No.
Seeing friends? Yeah, why not. Check.
Weekend assignments? Er, check. Of course check. Of course.
Depressed? Check.
Pissed off? Check.
Far behind in work? What rubbish, the checked box for weekend assignments is clearly not a lie.
I sighed. Convincing myself that I wasn't screwed in maths class for my half finished assignment didn't change the fact that Mr Lester would jam my eye out with a metal ruler. Swearing under my breath, I slammed my locker door shut.
Late for class? Check.

This week was getting better and better wasn't it?

As I walked to the classroom, I began praying that Mr Lester had broken an arm, leg, anything, over the weekend and wasn't here today. I peeked through the classroom door's window. Prayer sucked, there was Mr Lester, ready as always, writing notes on the board. My eyes roamed over the desks. Troy was at our regular spot, and seemed to be intensely focused on something in his lap. Everyone else was busy writing down the notes on the whiteboard.
Then I saw it. That head of flowing, golden-brown hair. Sitting next to the empty seat Troy had reserved for me. I rubbed my eyes in disbelief. This sort of thing only happened in stories, not real life.

Oh, of course it did. Rubbing my eyes helped a lot. I was actually staring at the school hippie, with his also flowing, golden-brown hair. Lovely, I said quietly to myself, lovely. With that, I opened the door, quickly padded over to my chair and slid into the seat.

Need to get this girl out of my head? Check.

Get Lost

Hey there friend
Is it you I'm looking for, because for
Days and days I've searched high and low
Even through the rain, the hail, the snow

Anyone can tell you that there's
No one, so far, in my life
Despite the fact I'm surrounded by friends

Somebody out there likes to
Evade discovery and then when
Everything has fallen down they'll
Know it's time to show their face

[But if I play this game to lose, I think I'll quit before too long.]

White Shoes

They step
Forwards
Then back
Unsure
Every
Move they
Make in
Time to
The beat

Mockingbird

Now hush little baby don't you cry
Wipe those tears from those pretty eyes
Things are a little crazy
My little lady
But I promise
I'll stay with you through the night

Honesty

This is where I tell her a lie
To cover up another
Which masked the one before
That I created in defence
Of the first one I told
In order to conceal the truth
From being uncovered

This is why we cry
How we hurt each other
Virtue gets lost in war
As we hide behind the wire fence
And even when we're old
Devoid of our glorious youth
The truth is never discovered

This is how we should try
To stand as one, together
Go from door to door
Gathering, building strength
So even in lies so cold
There's no need for truce
But honesty, just honesty so revered

Stupid Question

Why do we lie through our teeth
Just to scream bloody murder
And it's all that people hear
Or want to, they're quick learners
Why is it every day's a struggle
Just to turn a new leaf
And when it looks like there'll be trouble
Your friends can't be found for a week

True to nature, it's survival of the fittest
But better yet, those who survive hate the consequences

North, South, East, Straight Up

Use my advice, get a little lost
'Cause you'll lose yourself to it all

First let's go forwards
Backtrack when we're unsure
Turn right, or was it left
Who cares, it all leads towards
A place where we can be more
Than what we are, mere self

So come with me, no matter the cost
Because we'll fly when we fall
Straight up, up, away.

Track Thirty-Four

I love the way everyone tries so hard to be unique. They'll go out of their way to create something they call "theirs", that is completely and utterly "random", never done before, never seen before, and one hundred percent theirs.

Welcome to the Window, and uniqueness is so rare it's almost bullshit.

You can tell a lot from a person from looking at their blog. Let's take me for instance. Judging by the type of posts I create, I'm a self-denying emotional child who thinks he can write pretty lines. When I want to feel good, I'll tell myself that I'm deep and meaningful, and a poet who creates epiphanies in a breath. Sounds so damn brilliant, I won't even need a degree with these skills.

Some people decide to have a stab at beliefs, ways of life, decisions, those sorts of things. They'll dress it up with some fancy flourishing language, with the occasional *insert stupid action between the asterisks* to make it look funny. Yes, they say they're expressing themselves, and there's nothing wrong with that. It's just a tad eccentric. Just a tad.

Then there are people who actually create a classic blog. They give us their day to day activities, which more often than not give us things to laugh about. All honesty, I wish I was the sort of person who could write a blog like that. Frankly though, my life's way too boring.

Finally, we have the poets, songwriters, masters of lyrical liasons, things like that. I swear, this category must have the most emos, it's quite funny.

You know what else is funny? I'm a huge hypocrite. I'm having a go at every demographic, something I dislike. Then again, the world needs hypocrites.

I should stop trying to sound so intelligent.

Take it easy everyone, and keep smiling =]

Simple Sounds

V1.
Simple sounds
They come and go
Slipping through
My broken stereo
Fade away
Like memories of late
Gone astray
Can't compensate

Bridge.
Oh, waves so loud
All around me now
And coming close to you
Feel the ground
Just fall and break

V2.
Simple sounds
In time you'll know
Echo through
Your hearts window
Listen close
You'll hear my voice
Calling
Calling to you

Bridge.
Oh, waves so loud
Crash around me now
And swelling close to you
Feel the ground
Crumble away

Chorus.
Simple sounds
Simple sounds
It's all there is
All I hear now
Simple sounds
Simple sounds
No need to worry
When you sleep in simple sound

V3.
Heartbeat's sound
That's what you'll hear
Flowing from
The ones you love so dear
Heartache's sound
It's just so near
Spoken soft
Into your ear

Bridge.
Oh, waves so loud
Rise around me now
Seperate me from you
As the ground
Leads you away

Chorus.
Simple sounds
Simple sounds
It's all there is
All I hear now
Simple sounds
Simple sounds
No need to worry
When you sleep in simple sound

Simple sounds
Simple sounds
It's all there is
All I hear now
Simple sounds
Simple sounds
No need to worry
When you sleep in simple sound


[Song two that I'll be recording next term, inspired by OneRepublic's "Come Home". Take it easy]

Don't You

V1.
I've got something good to say
But you won't believe me anyway
That's cool, baby
But it's a truth you've got to hear
I heard you and all your friends
Talking about that boy from the west end
It's alright, baby
But I heard he likes to play

Bridge.
Don't you fall for this charm
He's just biding his time
To come sweep you off your feet
And take you to cloud nine
Don't you let him kiss your cheek
He'll be back for more next week
Same old, shady child
Who broke your heart last time

Chorus.
He loves to play these games with you
Cause no one else will love him like you do
Kiss then fight, make up, same night
No wonder he comes back for more
Don't believe the lies he spins
He's had more girls than you could comprehend
You're worth more, I guarantee
So please don't you ignore me

V2.
This love, you seem to adore
To him, it's just a booty call
Two a.m., he's at your door
Baby why'd you let him in
He's had, Sarah and her twin
Followed by Claire and Catherine
He's got a list, checked it twice
And he's got you down for tonight

Bridge.
Don't you fall for this charm
He's just biding his time
To come sweep you off your feet
And take you to cloud nine
Don't you let him kiss your cheek
He'll be back for more next week
Same old, shady child
Who broke your heart last time

Chorus.
He loves to play these games with you
Cause no one else will love him like you do
Kiss then fight, make up, same night
No wonder he comes back for more
Don't believe the lies he spins
He's had more girls than you could comprehend
You're worth more, I guarantee
So please don't you ignore me

Bridge 2.
I can't promise you, a guy who's ten for ten
I can't give you someone perfect as a saint
I can't promise clear blue skies
But I can give you my love and life
This boy infatuation, is just that
And nothing more


[Lyrics to the newest song I'll be recording next term, let me know if you'd like a copy =] Take it easy people]

Let It Go

Can we play a little game just to pass the time
So I can be distracted from these heavy thoughts in my mind
I tried to sing it all away but they broke right through
And now it's worse than what it was because I'm thinking of you
I struggle when I try to find the words for this
It's too hard to speak when your heart is falling to bits
And every call between us makes it even harder to breathe
And every breath that follows feels like I've been cut open to bleed
I find myself holding onto the phone
Praying for your call in the times I feel so alone
But I feel like a fool, hoping and praying
For something that'll never happen, not in this life that I'm staying

Everything That's Wrong

You
Me
And the rest
Of the damn world
The irony might kill us all

Sleep At Nine

I've got nothing to stay awake for
Gladly I'll sleep like a child
Slip away into dream land

I've got everything to ignore
Sadly I'll remember like a child
Run away into no man's land

Knowledge Is (Not) Power

To know what I do
Everyday you're alive
Makes you wonder what's truth
And why it won't ever survive
The wise are the worst
They're plagued day and night
With visions of the cursed
Sleeping with eyes pried open with fright
Vagueness is bliss
It's as good as a kiss
There's nothing to miss
Yet everything in this

Blink Twice

Magic's in the air
For one day in the year
Click your fingers
Open your eyes
Quel bloody surprise
It's a sad affair
Because nobody'll hear
Your cry as it lingers
Close your eyes
And slowly, the light dies

Forgetting To Remember

There are days you need to know
Then those which mean nothing
Some help you grow
Most do nothing
Another where your heart you'll show
Still, nothing

What am I telling myself?
That I don't want to be reminded
Or the need to lose it all
Renews its grip on me

This shit doesn't even rhyme
Should I even bother?
Mind you, it saves me time
But I'll still write another

Scars

Scored a line in my arm
It hurt like hell
But it reminds me
Compassion got me here
I wish I had a black heart
Something to show I fell
In front of you all to see
And what none will ever witness
Is my single tear

That Day

And til I see her again
Before grace amazing takes me home
I'll trust in something worthwhile
That mightn't leave my side
Sing this song tonight
As you hold your lover's hand

Eyes locked onto mine
Lips barely touching
Breathe together
Pulse beat in time

Then wake up
From the apparition
Of a happily ever after

Fuck sleeping
All I get is brokenness

Lie To Me

No more words
You just say untruths
Even if you swear
It was all unlies
I can't believe you

Building Up

What's the matter?
Nothing.
Come on, tell me.
Nothing, damn it.
There's something on your mind.
After all these years,
I can read you from your eyes.
It's telling me the fears.
I'm fine, I'll get through.
Who cares what I think anyway?
It's not anything new,
Plus, there's always hell to pay.
All I want is a little peace,
Some quiet to ease my pain.
This migraine will never cease.
I'm suffering quietly, always the same.
You sure?
Yes.
No.

Seven Sonnets For Her

This is a series of sonnets written from a man to his lover, beginning with his first sighting of her, followed by his descriptions of her features which enrapture his heart, mind and soul. Following this, he begins to talk about their relationship, which begins off as smoothly as any other. However, this love is struck by disease, which takes her life, leaving the man despondent and alone, his only hope resting in the possibility of joining her in heaven. I wrote these sonnets last year for my English creative piece. I hope you enjoy them.




Sonnet One.
[Vision]

They say the first impression is the key
Which opens up the doors to any love
Releasing forth a tide of feelings free
The blessings of the cupid's aim above
Jolting every sense in mind and body
Then slowly paralyzing every thought
This poison? Or is't something benignly
Caressing restless soul, precious love caught
Mere script hold not enough expressions deep
To flaunt and flourish this which plagues me so
Such blatant, brazen feelings thieve my sleep
And in my dreams these seeds of love do sow
No words remain to say of this, embossed
Far too deep in my heart, it's all but lost


Sonnet Two
[Windows]

A pair of eyes too deep, no man could fathom
Enthralling constantly my craving will
Wary not, I risk myself lost in the chasm
Which are your mystifying orbs, tranquil
Windows to your soul, they mislead my view
Yet constantly search for you inside
That which you guard by sea of brightest blue
For eternity will I try melt your pride
Barring all, spare none, to inner self
All who look, deception and rejection
Greets them, when the look into this ice shelf
The only cold, harsh, hurting reflection
Oh eyes, oh eyes, the icy diamonds hard
Intriguing, taunting, pulling at my heart


Sonnet Three
[Stirrer]

Tainted with the tempting taste of trick'ry
Twisting tales of truth laden with sweet lies
These lips of thine have tweaked the lines of mock'ry
Till lips of mine lust for your taste, they cry
Taken by your words spun with tongue of fire
Teasing all my tumultuous passions
Tenderly, with voice of heavenly choir
Thrilling me to desperate obsession
Tincture be your words to all my sorrows
Time and time again, the most soothing balm
Trading hurts for love promised tomorrow
Treasure, this be, for naught like this can calm
Trepidation melts, with all worldly woes
Tears, my gratitude for this love that flows


Sonnet Four
[Commitment]

Shall I compare thee to a summer's day?
Or perhaps naught can truly bring justice
This radiance, now mine to hold and say
Aloud of my rejoicing and promise
To you, I give the world, both heart and soul
My body for your will, and yours alone
Keep it, love it, hold it, make it your toll
For me, your will is worth more than any stone
Your love, I shall hold dear for eternity
As it graces my life for years to come
No weapon formed against me shall vict'ry
When love so strong protects my heart and home
I promise thee, oh dearest in my life
Ever present shall I be, even in strife


Sonnet Five
[Jubilee]

We dance away the time spent together
No hindrances exist to hide such joy
Frolicking in a world for us, fore'er
Such greatness in this love, I'm overjoyed
Necessity to repeat o'er and o'er
My exuberance has no restriction
Unconfined this of mine has no laws
To alter or to bind, my pure addiction
When love of mine with yours meets and combines
A fireworks display could never match
If looked upon with bare unhindered eyes
This vision, so powerful the mind would catch
Joy of joys, heart of hearts, unfold in mine
Sibilance, grace and love returned in kind


Sonnet Six
[Stricken]

Woe, such woe, ensnares this passion from me
Whence came this dreaded affliction, to you
With want to thieve our love, and take with glee
Wavering-not, my love, my life, soul too
Without you, most assuredly I die
Wakeless in a sleep so lonely, depressed
Waiting, praying for a miracle d'vine
Wilting as the gloom around, hope supress
Wasted life, spurned love, products of this
Why, oh why, such cancerous plague must crush
Weathered bond, that has through all never ceased
Wafer thin now, as death leans close to touch
Wailing anguished'ly as you slip away
While the final sleep comes to rob our day


Sonnet Seven
[Aftermath]

Quiet is the world, when you're not b'side me
Missing you, a pain no mortal could bare
Superhuman I have become, to see
Myself survive this quake, through my heart tear
Nothing remains to give, or take inside
Nothing but emptiness pursues my will
This disaster of unmatched burden, quiet
Destroying all but primal urge to kill
Revenge on what? Can mere man strike disease
With sword, or fist, or any weapon known
Helpless I am, to wreak my vengeance pleas
Gone, art thou, forever from world around
But Heaven shall open its gates for me
To join you, love you, for eternity