Letter To The Editor

Dear sir, allow me to say
That your column offended me today
Such poor taste in words, short and long
Burning my eyes with your views oh so wrong
Hire a teacher for your woeful attempts
Or maybe just quit, that would be heaven sent
Cruel it may sound, but true to the core
You're making my reading the papers a bore

All I Want

That feeling you get
When you're a part
Of something so good

Inside, it's what I crave
So please hear me?

Could I join the game
Or is it already full?
More people aren't welcome
Perhaps next time I may
Again my company is all I have
Not much, I know, but it'll do
Yet I still just want to be included

[Three's a crowd. What's four?]

God Cries

See the rain
It's the tears
Shed for me
Falling for you
Hear the thunder
It's the voice
Calling for me
Soothing the hurt
Feel the lightning
Uh-oh

Parental Guidance

Warning: The following content
Involves the abuse of various
People and their minds, followed
By gross overexaggeration of
The false truth told by a liar
Who promised to tell the truth.
What. Utter. Nonsense?

Darker Than Black

Best leave the light off
Let the shadows scream
As we sit or lie here
Clasping hands now
Killing hours till dawn

Last words not enough
In this quiet scene
Give me reason clear
Heavy-eyed now
Till the early morn

Can you
Only you
Never let
Vision set
Even when
Reality then
Steals away
All our days
Talk to me
In here
Only here
Not there
Say it now

[Shush]

Track Twenty-Nine

If you came from China and you wanted to go on a holiday to a really exotic and different place, you wouldn't exactly go to Beijing or Shanghai would you? Not for a holiday, surely. Perhaps Hawaii! Yeah, Hawaii sounds good, it's a CHANGE, something that's completely DIFFERENT, am I right?

Welcome to the Window. I'm here in another country, where I was hopeful to escape a lifestyle that I would face upon returning home. On the contrary, life is just about as uneventful, unentertaining, and depressing... especially in the areas where I needed the change. I'm not saying life at home sucks, but I'm not saying it's fantastic either. I'm saying that I needed the change, like a medication if you will, but it never came. Back home, it gets pretty lonely, and here? Well, at the worst of times I may as well have stayed back home.

There are a few things which provide a slight upside though. I'm treated with a little more maturity, so I feel a little more my age instead of a mummy's boy (the irony's killing me). Cheap shopping is the other plus, except it's a tad expensive when you have no money left.

The final positive aspect? Well, I'll leave that for you to figure out. It'll be really blatantly obvious, so smile =]

Take it easy everyone.

DNA

Diary of a deluded
Naiive, negligent no-hope
Asshole for short

Four Letter Word

Laughing at you
Yes you, you poor fool
What did you say to me?
Using that explosive word?
You're a funny one, you are
Naughty language, shame!
Haha, I'll tell your mother
She'll kick your ass

My my, aren't we all so mature.

Falling Upward

This bright night, I fell awake
And saw the stars in the clear blue sky
Kept my eyes closed open, sleep fake
Enterd me into immortality to die

Move over, sun, my moon is late
Yesterday you stole his fate

See, rhyming is easy as pie
Let your mind and heart collide
Even if you lose your sanity
Establish what counts, your vanity!
Prove to me that I need sleep, go on.

[Delirium is bloody bliss.]

A Few Days Too Many

Sometimes you really want to question
Who exactly it is, you want to call your friend
Sometimes, when you disappear for a while
Who comes looking for you, those you treasure?
Sometimes it's those you least expect to miss you
Who are the ones to bother calling your number
Sometimes these events cause you to really think
Who ou want around you when you're in need
Never will you hear your "friend's" confessions
You can beg all you want, they'll remain shut till you end
Never think they'll talk, just know their lie
You should be able to recognise their error
Never rgret your decisions, both false and true
You will, one day, but don't let it get you under
Never was when you thought you might sink
You be careful, the day's coming when for help you'll plead

Two Plus Two

Fool of the world
Only you'll know
Underneath this sky
Rest comes to none

Kleptomanic Depression

Shouldn't this give me the kick
It usually does, or is it not worth it?
Maybe it needs to be bigger, better
Anything, I'm just desperate to nick
A little something here, a small trinket
Just something to give along with this letter
My prescription for help, a desperation
Only a shrink can help cure, believe me
They'll get into my mind, tell me what's wrong
Perhaps provide me with some revelation
Help me know the depth of my deeds
And maybe, just for the laughs...
I'll write my story into a song.

[Hahaha. That kills me, it really does.]

Criss Cross

Ex marks the spot
Ex marks your skin
Ex marks my lips
Tracing within

Bipolar

Perhaps I'll start this ordinary day
in a smile of drugged self-control
Leave one half behind, locked away
Lover of the hell which could unfold

This is how I have to live this life
Obsessed with freedom, suppressed to survive

Kill the slow hours with some work
Especially when the mind slips, weak
Every breath counts, the control hurts
Pent up stress slowly building, relief seek

Maybe this glass will help me
Even though I know hell will unleash

Slowly, the bonds break, get ready
As the fun begins, life looks great
Nothing can stop me now, I said get ready!
Enough! Let the fucking mind games begin!

Interpretatio Misunderstanding

What did you say
Those quiet words
That slipped away
I never heard

Maybe my mind
Can't recognise
So just rewind
Say that short line

Crowded House

There's that feeling
You're the one not wanted
"Two's company, three's a crowd"?
What trash, pure utter trash
The crowd only happens
When you try to join a unit
You're the one not wanted
That spare piece of puzzle
Individually, they're not so bad
As a whole, well things change
You're the one not wanted
Maybe you should go off
Just make your own damn group
A crew for your very own
No one likes the feeling
Of being alone in a crowded room
No one.


[Can I join in?]

Scream

Raise some voice above
That hellish noise to love
Addiction, drugs fall short
No cure was ever caught
Slip a gag over my mouth
Or else I won't stop this shout
It just gets louder here
So just move, move damn it

Back In The Day

I liked to watch the sky go round
Count all those pointless clouds
Finding the perfect dream
Was all life ever seemed

That's what life was like
In those simple times
Now all I have tonight
Are my simple rhymes

Back in the day
I had a dream
But it didn't last
To see this day

One Day On A Rainbow

That's what one day with you is like
That's what spending an hour with you is like
That's what seeing you is like
That's what hearing your voice is like

It's a day in the sunshine
A day without rain
Something I dream of
Without you, I'm not the same

Wait for me.
Soon, very soon, we'll join the bluebirds.

Photograph

Maybe it's just a snapshot
Even so, it lasts a lifetime
Much longer than my memory does
Oh that's for sure, much longer
Realisation's slowly setting in
Yesterday I left, today I arrived, tomorrow...

[Well, tomorrow I'll be home. In your arms. Finally]

Tipsy

Isn't it sad
How this is
The first time
In so many days
I've been so
So completely happy

Maybe it's got
Something to do
With how much
I miss you
Yeah, that sounds
Just about right

Pass me another one
I'll drown my sadness
If it's
The last
Thing I
Do

I miss you

Broken Shoes

Walked all the way here
From the time when I wasn't so near
I'm tired now, just a little bit
Don't say a word, it'll make me want to quit
Half way here I got lost
My map was torn from bottom to top
So I tried to thumb a ride
No one saw me standing on the side

But I'm here now, that's all that matters
Right?

Tired Of Television

I'll stare at that glowing screen
Simply wondering if maybe
If maybe I stare for long enough
And focus on the thought of you
I'll see you in that screen
Just for a split second? No, not
Now, not ever, it's just a delirious
Anonymous dream I had last night
I'm sick of this glowing screen
It hurts my eyes.

I'm not crying,
The screen hurts my eyes,
That's all

Three Days Behind

I don't know whether this is the first
Or the last of many falters
All I'm sure of, so very sure of
Is that I got caught up in the past

Fall With Me

You'd hold my hand right?
Trust me to keep you safe
Well, look down, way down
We can't see the bottom
The other side is only just
A few short metres away
But I don't want to cross
This chance has come now
Fly or fall with me, either way
You'd hold my hand right?

[Right?]

Still Life

Have to wait another month
Only thirty days more from tonight
Listening to the hours run
Days missing my left in your right

Missing the smallest five point star
You'll never be too far

Heavy eyelids in the sun
As you turn your head into mine
Now just feel my pulse
Doesn't it flow for you?

Chapter Seven

I closed the front door of my house quietly, then leaned back against the wall. That name. I'd never heard such a beautiful name before. Mind in a daze, I slowly shuffled up the stairs to my bedroom. I just couldn't stop thinking about that name! Finally, the face had a name, and now it was plaguing my mind just as badly.

Zahra. When you look at it, it doesn't seem like much. When she said it though, that was something magical. The air was alive with electricity, her voice sent thousands of sparks running through my body, all the way to my fingertips. I know, stereotypical metaphorical garbage, but a better way to describe the feeling I will never find.

Zahra. The name that changed. Everything.

Five Minutes Away

I'm close to you
So close
And yet I'm far from you
So far, so very far
Music can't save me
From the thought of you
Soon I'll be gone
Where'll you be?

Story

I had a friend who forgot his name
Not because he had the choice
But because he just wanted to escape
Block out the past and the present noise
One day he got a gun, loaded it up
With bullets he'd made from soldering lead
Held it in his right hand, a letter in left
Closed his eyes, lifted the gun to his head

[Story? That's the end.]

Click Click

Slip one into the chamber
Just one is all I'll need
Lock it back in position
Knock back the hammer
Finger wrapped around
The trigger.

Click. Click. Boom.

Tickle Your Fancy

What'll it be, let me ask you this
As we begin this silent night of bliss
Perhaps a quiet tune to start us off
Followed by the waltz, send spirits aloft
Do simple riffs embrace your ear
Or is it the complex you're craving to hear
Whatever you need, I'll play it for you
On this silent night of bliss, in a sea of dark blue

Brother [A Dedication]

There was no one stronger
Not in my world, anyway
No one who would live longer
Watch out for me everyday
Hold my hand when I cried
Make me laugh when I fell
Set me straight all this while
Have my back, never tell

We spent so many days
Just wasting our sweet time
Always found so many ways
To make most of the sunshine
Fight? Yes we did, of course
But that's brotherhood for you
Between us there's a force
Unbreakable, believe it's true

So now I sit here beside you
In this steel chair all alone
Waiting for you to wake up soon
Hoping that you can come home
I'll sit here beside you
So long spent here all alone
Waiting for you to get up soon
Because I need you back home

Rem!cks

When it's quietest, I'll sit here and just waiT
Every word of the day travels down my mind's patH
Let my mind rest, a temporary escapE
Closely look now, as mist fogs up the glass
Only a thin sheet between high and loW
My thin sheet of see-through soul, my cracking alibI
Each sliver of space a scar from lonely time on my owN
This hurts more to say than think, I've come to finD
True, it's taken more than just a minute or sO
Once it's finished, it doesn't sound that bad, you knoW?