Underdog

In a race where
To win is to have
And victory means
No pain for loss
There's no fairness
In being an underdog

Rip Another One

That's just what I want to do
Grab a hold of the nearest anything
Bare hands, nothing more to prove
Tear apart everything
I need to release this tension
It's building
And this dissension
It's crippling
I'll force myself away from you
Before you know I'm gone

Phone Talk

Up till three a.m.
It's lonely when you're sleeping
Talking till the clock turns p.m.
As the dawn comes in creeping

Fall Like So

'Cause when you say words
They fall apart so quickly
I don't know why it's so absurd
That I stumbled so swiftly
Not just for the sake of these lines
But I'm torn apart inside
Should have seen the signs
Known you've lied

[I'm stupid as always]

Below The Low

There's some point you reach
It seems to be too far beyond
Your capacity before you breach
The fine line between right and wrong
It's to question if you truly
Have a place right here to belong
Whilst all around you it's so unruly
Like hell's so quickly come and gone
But don't let it get to your head
That there's hopelessness in this song
There's still so much left to be said
So hold my hand and just come along
With me, 'cause this journey's lonely
And no matter how lost we are among
All the ins and outs of this life only
We can look back at the past and say
So long
Without a backwards glance

Beautiful - Eminem

Lately I've been hard to reach
I've been too long on my own
Everybody has a private world
Where they can be alone
Are you calling me?
Are you trying to get through
Are you reaching out for me
I'm reaching out for you

In my shoes, just to see
What it's like, to be me
I'll be you, let's trade shoes
Just to see what it'd be like
To feel your pain, you feel mine
Go inside each others minds
Just to see what we'd find
Look at shit through each other's eyes
But don't let them say you ain't beautiful
They can all get fucked
Just stay true to you

Rivet Of A Life

'Cause that's where I'm stuck
I don't want to be here, mind you
And the quickest escape
Would most likely be
My biggest mistake
I could possibly make
So possibly with a bit of luck
I'll leave before too soon
Then I can hold your hand
Without anyone knowing
Who or why we do what we do
Nothing between it all
First thing's first though
I need to know who you are

Secondhand Seperation

Fill ins and cut outs
Of illusionary illustrations
Reflected in the brightest
Eyes you'll ever see
Vaguely reminding me
Every single moment
Reasons I'm the second

Because

No one'll ever love you like I do
In a million years, always and forever
No one can ever break me like you
But I'm still here, same as ever
Because when you cry
Because when you smile
Because, because, because
I haven't got a reason

Twelve In The Evening

What songs can make you weak
At such a ridiculous hour
Culmination of every
Emotion too heavy
To ever need to speak
Of, locked between our
Dying hearts so nearly
Broken in glass shards clearly
Reflected on the sleeves
Of the surface we wear

Unforgettable

I don't want to listen to this song tonight
Yet here it is playing right into my ears
All I wish to do is sleep properly for one night
Not have to teeter on the brink of tears

Apologize - OneRepublic

I take another chance
Take a fall, take a shot for you
I need you like a heart needs a beat
But it's nothing new
I loved you with a fire red
Now it's turning blue
And you say
Sorry like the angel
Heaven let me think was you
But I'm afraid

It's too late

New Divide

In every loss
In every lie
In every truth
That you deny

Razorblade Tattoo

How I ease my frustration
With a little bit of carvery
Cut a new revelation
A new pattern of mastery
To control the pain
Try forget what caused this
That I'll hide with such shame
But easy eyes will miss
And my arms run red with ink
This is what I'm making
An escape, so I need not think
How to keep faking
Just release

Little Secret

This is what's killing us
You don't talk, I don't know
All the while it's killing us
And I'll never let it show
Until you notice somehow
When I'm gone

The Reason

You want to know why I can't sleep?
Why my insomnia's not a medical trauma
It's the lies that I hear, that I'm forced to keep
Because they're told so I'm not hurt, no drama
But it's bullshit, you hear me, fucking bullshit
Don't lie, don't ever fucking lie
Do you want to know it
The reason why?
You want to know why I've got red raw wrists
Why I've bled till I'm dizzy and passing out
All because my friends just have to insist
On lying to my face, so I never know about
The bullshit they do, behind my back
And it's the reason
The reason
No other, really
That I'm like this right now.

Fuck you all, you'll never read this anyway.

The Way Shit Is

I can't trust a single person
Because a lies a commodity
You would've thought I'd learned my lesson
And not become a casualty
To the bullshit gallantry
That I was raised with every day
But people stab you silently
In the back while you pray
They all call me a liar
As I fight wars that aren't mine
Cause the truth's not the truth
It's whatever they define
It to be, and I'm fed up
With the fucking complaints
People just won't ever shut up
When they're wrong, and in pain
One person says "He did this"
While another "No he didn't"
Well I'm sick of this shit
It's not my problem is it?
But I'll keep pushing along
For a friend of so long
While they don't realise
That I'm the one with tears in my eyes
These social politicians
Who think that what they say goes
Manipulate me to their positions
Then lie to me, when I need to know
Is it hard to tell the truth
Or do you want a fucking pay cheque
To do the job you've been born with
To say it right, to save my breath
Now I'm strung up so high
Because I'm left here to die
For a reason so stupid
I can't believe I didn't see through it
Don't feed me the sorry's
I don't want your apologies
Just get out of my sight
Before I kill myself this very night
This frustration, it's tainted
With bullets and fragments
Of every single stupid mistake
That you made in the past and
I don't want to care anymore
Can't you get it in your head
But if I don't, then there's all
The consequences instead
So I'll smile for another day
Breakdown inside, as they say
All the shit behind my back
For my sacrificial ways
And I can't even admit
If it's worth it at all
But who really gives a fuck
What I'm thinking at all
So now do you get it?
I'm borderline insane
Maybe I'll grab a gun and
Blow a hole right through my brain
But who'll miss me when I'm dead
That stupid fucker who didn't side
With anyone, but instead
Tried to bring peace and quiet
No one ever really cares though
Because the guns and knives are out
And this shit'll pop off, so
Let's just forget about it now

When You Know

I can't hold it in much longer
I know I was meant to be stronger
But now I know what I know
And I've heard what I've heard
My despair's starting to show
You'd have thought I'd learned

Like Toy Soldiers

Step by step, heart to heart
Left right left, we all fall down
Like toy soldiers
Bit by bit, torn apart
We never win, but the battle rages on
For toy soldiers

Before The Murder

All you heard
Was that scream
Before the gunshot
After that
You wonder to yourself
If silence is really golden

War

This isn't my fight
Yet I'm stuck here in the middle
Waving the only white flag
Seen for miles on end
You hate this, they hate that
Everyone shoots their gun
Bullets flying into the no-man's-land
And the irony is
That all of them hit me and my little flag
My little white, white flag
Just stop it, damn you all

Another Autumn Day

I tried to see it
This hype, the joy
All of what they said
It would be for me
Instead, I lost it
Nothing but white noise
Was in my head
But I'm still eighteen
It's as good as eight
With Everything Extra that's uNecessary

Because You Break

Without weakness, strength isn't here
So when we're devoid of wholeness
Brokenness can't plague us
Immunity exists in our minds
We strengthen with each day
And as we do, death isn't as frightening

In the times where sorrow's near
I'll hold you close from the coldness
Of a dark night, just trust
Me, I'll be nothing but kind
Look into my eyes, as I say

[Because you break, I'll be stronger]

Tearing

It's what I'm feeling
This incessant need
To release this rage
Beat pounds as I'm kneeling
Off these chords I'll feed
Shatter this empty cage
Such emotion this music's stealing
As the amplifier's bleed
Behind me on the pulsing stage

Chapter Ten

Once again, the day passed in a blur. It's crazy, the more I think about school, the faster it seems to slip by. So I reasoned that if I think about it all the time, maybe I might just be able to enjoy this year.

You know what the best part of the day was though? Kicking back in my chair once I got home, slipping on the good ol' headphones, and letting my music just carry me away. There's nothing left to think about, nothing to worry me, not a single thing to give me hell. Just the music and me.

That's how it always should be.

As I let the music play, I gazed out of my bedroom window, over to the hill at the end of the street. The sun was beginning to set, and the familiar golden rays began playing on the grass, tiny glass shards reflecting the light in every direction. I knew that I was hoping to see Zahra, I won't deny it. She wasn't there though, just the hill and the sun, nothing more.

"Screw this." I said to myself, and with that, I pulled off my headphones, grabbed my jacket and headed downstairs to go to the hill. I needed to get some air anyway.

Well, that's what I was telling myself. Purely for the fresh air. Purely.

Give Me A Reason

If I wanted
Just to jump right here
From the ledge I'm on
And then I'd fall
Beyond anyone's reach
Can you give me the reason

She

My only one to know
Of all my ins and outs
The rights and wrongs
Her words to calm and heal
Everyday will I
Remember

Who Do I

Someone's staring
Endlessly gazing
Evading the surface

I've remembered why
No one remembered me

This is the reason
He's standing there
Ever pulling me back

Move a little, just to the side
I want to be seen
Revealed so I can be
Recognised in some way
Only a little though
Realisation shows scars

Broken Chords

These don't belong to me
They're written for her
To hear this heartbreak
One note at a time
Rippling through the pages
Of this simple score

Rooftops

They rise high above
Thirty, forty, fifty floors
Break your neck just to see
That one small figure
Arms outstretched
Battling the breeze
Standing on the rooftops
Scream your heart out

Stay With You

It's what friends do
So late at night
Or early in the morning
I'll stay with you

When you're lonely
Just because
No reason to give
I'll stay with you

If I need you
You'd do the same
So the least I can do
I'll stay with you

In A corner

Just sit and watch
As the traffic goes by
Listening to the beat
Beat beat beat
Of the city life
It's empty and hollow
Devoid of purpose
But still goes on
Beat beat beat

Ask God

Why we cry at night when there's nothing to cry for
Why the boy shot his friend who had no reason to die or
Why in every single line, there's a misconceived lie
Why to try and save time, we'll twist from side to side
Where did all the peace go, why do we still hate so
Where should you run to, why're you even staying low
Where is the one to save us, why can't we see them through the strife
Where do children who die go, why can't they live a full life
When are You coming again, what do we need to know
When is there world peace, what's all this hatred we show
When will a real cure for sickness come, what can medication do
When can we run free in the streets, what can bring us to You
What is love when it's fake, where's integrity gone
What's a fight for it's sake, where's the brotherly bond
What do children learn in school, where it's so corrupt
What can we do to provide, where greed's so easy to come up
Who do we ask?

Where It Went

Somehow, somewhere
Lost amidst the static
We lost something
So subtle to see
Yet so simple to
Slip away

As You Fall

Smile and know
There's one waiting
Below to catch you
Through the mist you flow
No more hesitating

Out Of Tune

Listening to all the wrong songs
For all the right reasons
Not because I want to
But something's drawing my hand
To press play again and again
A useless ballad
Crying out for more