Melancholic's Anonymous

Waking up isn't so easy when you're
Loving a broken dream
Early morning brings no cure
And you're lost it seems
When you fight to stay asleep
Because you're happy where you are
Wondering how you managed to keep
This happiness, this loneliness so far

Like A Toy

After a while
The shelf seems
Like a better place
Than to be picked up
Taken for a spin
To only be put back
And walked away from
Someone buy me please

Atlas

Can save the world
Bear the weight of
Everything on these shoulders
I could be the hero that
They need to be happy
And I don't mind it
But they'll never know
Just how much I need my
Own rescue to come soon

Causeless

Lift me up out of here
Come on, come on
I'm hating these heart throbs
As they beat me senseless
I don't care if darkness is near
So come on, come on
We'll map the route to get lost
And I'm left so defenceless

Lift me up, way up high
I just want to get out of here
You feel me?

If I Ever

Nothing left to do
But fall to your knees
And know that
You were used
Better get back up
Because the next
One is coming fast

Another Runaway

Faster and quieter
Gone in the night
Before dawn could
Notice the absence
Slipping through the fence
Over the hills
And far, far, far away

No One Knows

I saw it in my sleep
The way a dream
Fabricated from times
I wanted them most
Could disappear with just
A burst of colour
A shifting shadow
But I still saw it in my sleep
Or lack of, I guess
Never makes much difference
When I hoped to sleep
I could never dream
I always got lost in morning's early times
And what I needed the most
Wasn't there, but just
A faded colour
A crying shadow
So I don't get much sleep
Same as always, I guess
Shouldn't be much difference

Let's Start Something We Can Call Ours

We jump with
This beat so heavy
Forget a kiss
We're gone already
Drumroll one
Distortion's come
And taken it all
On a shredded
Fretboard, while
A bass line drives
This song straight
To your head and heart

As Always

If words can't
Describe the
Emotions of
The moment
You know you're
In so deep
Way over your head

Burned

Where love's just a word
We don't care, really
Whether it's truly heard
When it's not nearly

Enough to say where
Every pain that we
Endured, and whether
Each day said when

Love would give enough
Leash to breathe for every
Lost breath endured
Love lost me for a while, and I don't want to find my way back home

Sing With Me

Because it gets lonely
When you're playing
In an empty hall
The echoes resound
Through your ears
Straight to your heart
And just continues
To echo along the
Hollow chambers
You want to know
What giving up sounds like?

Every Little Piece

When I've found them all
Every little piece that
Flew in a million directions
After hearing I should
Give up, shouldn't spend
Any more effort on her
The calmness of delivery
Shattered me more than
Anything else did
The truth in the words
I'll never choose to believe
Maybe it's all just a dream
Yeah, that's it
You can wake me up now

Could You Know

The early morning hours
Are so cold and lonely
And this sleep of ours
Is an escape only
Blurry eyes and
Weary minds and
Weakened hearts, my friend
Oh I
Know that she's
Long gone

Mayhem

Complexity of a city
Circulating the criminal
Creed like a calling
For the collective
Culmination of crazes
To crash and create
Mayhem

Stronger

How the hell'd I get here
I need to turn back
These wrinkled pages
To the chapter that's been read
So many times, the tears
And the creases smudged
Every single word there
So I'll rewrite a new one that fits
To make me stronger, save me from this

Incompletely Whole

It's lonely when you know
That you're never missed
Before you realise no one
Really gives a shit you're
Not around anymore

Far Gone

So I'll see you when
You get back I suppose
But maybe then
You won't be alone
There'll be someone
Else next to you instead
I hope they're the one
Who holds you like I said
I would

So Unsure

Whether or not the
Fingers that locked
With mine that night
Really meant anything
At all, because they're
Slipping away to someone
Elses hand

And Then

We fall like the
Leaves in autumn time
Bruised and battered
By the wind as our
Descent takes us away
To a place where
We'll make our home
Again, again, again

So when all the
Streets are lined
With souls scattered
You came and found
Me, one in the red array
And held me with care
Reminder I wasn't alone
And then, and then, and then

Well, that's it really, want to finish the story for me?

Still Here

I tried out everything
Repaired your broken wings
Helped you fly away without
So much as a goodbye kiss so
I'll forget everything
In this very song I'll sing
And pray there's nothing to miss

Fuck All

Yeah it's trouble when
Waking up is just so
Pointless, and the
Reasons you had are
Lost with the light
Of the damn dawn

Sunburn II

You're beautiful
No matter what
You do to me
There's not a
Single day I
Regret being
In your light
That gives me
Hope that a
Love can still
Exist, but in
Spite of all the
Bright satisfaction
I burn deeper
Than ever before
All for you, while
You never know

I'll always ask you
To be my
Paradox

Shouldn't

Give a shit, but
Let's be frank
If you took
A step forward
Then got shoved
Five back, you'd
Be as cut as I
Am right now
Right?

Wish You Could Here It

And nothing pulls
My heart like the
Playing of the keys
Black and white
For the wonderful
Breaking that I
Release in a small
Harmony for you

Sleepless II

Eyes that refuse to close
Till they're red from tears
Sleep escapes, elusive most
Laughing, mocking fears
Sleepless in July, cry the night away

Every thought is broken
Torn apart before their release
Strung high up in the open
Left to crumble in the breeze
Sleepless in July, watch the night away

Evening came and left me here
The irony is that I found it
Still, with each hour near
Lost is sleep to life's bandit
Sleepless in July, till the break of day

Finally

There's nothing quite like this
Watching the night sky in bliss
Forgetting for a short while
Every unhappiness that I'll
Remember, and my mind walks
Back to our lonely talks
Now lost in the world we returned to
Made to hide every trace of you
But still, there's nothing quite
Close enough to compare that night
Or this one

Hologram

No matter how many
Sides I try to look
At you, it's as though
Each view is different
To the next, ever
Changing, puzzling
Intriguing me further

The Useful And The Used

Here when you need me
But apart from that I'll
Just wait in the corner
To be picked up again
And that's the way
It always has been
And always will be

Pursuit Of All I Don't Need

Chase it, because I just need
Every useless dream to keep
A motivational spark each week
Within in me, a reason to breathe
Just to wake up and seek
These stupid repetitions, so
Even if they make me feel as though
Nothing can take away this weight, and know
Another desire to drive me to go
Justify
Why
I
Try?

Hide Away

Hopefully, I'll find
Relief in the dark
Sleep a while and
Wait for this
State of mind to
Turn and leave
Me alone

Pulse

I love heavy music
How it beats and
Pounds out every
Damn misconception
And pent up frustration
Remnants of emotion
Pressure of passion
Can you feel it
Can you
Can you
Can you?

Apathy's Hilarious

I swear if there's ever
Another war, they
Better just take me
Out and stick me in
Front of a firing squad.
I wouldn't object

- Catcher In The Rye

Glare

When all I see is
This blinding
Confining, shining
Light, that doesn't
Guide my way,
It just, like everything
Else, blurs up my
Vision

Close To

A small matter of
One step over the
Ledge, trust me I'm
Contemplating it
These last few dark
Nights, because the
Winds have changed
They don't sing like
They used to, instead
They cry with the
Rain as it falls
Deep down into the
Valleys around

Literally Speaking

Pretty close I'd say
That blade looks
Awfully sharp to
Me, but maybe if
The mood takes me
On a little dance
Around the back
And back to the
Front from the inside
Out, there see?
Already distracted

Wonder Why

I bother sometimes
When the choice is
Made before I can
Gain a fingerhold or
Even touch it, so
It's tempting to say
"Fuck it all", but
But I think a little
Harder, and I come
To the same conclusion
That hopefully
Hopefully
I won't be scarred again

Next Move

Should I slip the mask
Back on, the one I
Pulled off those months
Before, where a smile
Could protect me
In an instant, and
A laugh was my shield
Because I'm done with
Being the vulnerable
Hearing these voices
Echoing through the air
All I want to do is
Hide, and know I won't
Be ever missed
So, is this the next move

Quietly Now

The song plays just for you
Or so it seems to be
And the feeling that
Jolts through your every
Nerve, as you sway
From side to side
But yeah, maybe it's
Only for the moment
I don't really know

So Sick

If I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of these tears

I'd break the radio
Along with the answering machine
So I wouldn't think of you
But I still do

Go Where?

He said to me, he said
"I'm going in the dawn
Because no one'll ever
Notice that I'm gone
There's not a single
Reason to stay here
Except to sweep up
All my broken tears
I'll leave a note just to
Say there's no reason why"
And with that he left
While I waved myself goodbye

And All Say

I miss my piano
The simple black
And white keys
That could play
My fears away

I miss the songs
The ones that crack
And break to pieces
The strength I made
With words they say

Bejeweled

There's you and I
Standing in the moonlight
And how it shines
Reflected in your eyes
Locked with mine

Hope You Read This

You're closer than
I thought I'd let you
In, and now I'm scared
That you'll slip through
My fingers like a wave
Washed up on this beach
I've been walking for
So long, so very long
I don't know where
I'm going or what
I'm doing, but I know
I felt sparks

What They Say

Is a quiet word
Builds you up
Or breaks you down
And all can be
Lost or gained
In that same breath

Don't Care

As if you know
No one does
You always think
More of yourself
Or your hurts
Regarding not me
Ever

It's In A Touch

Electric, this spark between
Erratic, my movements seem
Ecstatic, the rapture of this dream
It's just a fingertip
Upon another
But that's all you need
To pass a charge
From you to me

My Twin

Who'll awake him
The past of my life
Shining bright
Cuts me like a knife
Knows every secret
Sin and vice
Oh, my twin
My brother, my blood
Sleep a little longer
Your time will come
But just for now
Rest in peace

Hundred Questions

I want to ask you
All of them, but
I'll still have so
Many begging to
Be heard and
Answered, can
You find the time
Or the heart
To stay with me?

Useless Repitition

If I listen to this song
This same, same song
Over and over again
Would it stop the pain?

Again

And when you finally learn
That nothing's built to last
Then comes the slow turn
Back around to the past

Welcomes you back with arms
Open in the cold embrace
Like the first love and her charms
You recall so well the face

Masking memory so distant
Times come and gone
Well, now they're reminiscant
Of what you want undone

Sometimes We

Want nothing more than
A quiet place to sit
Some privacy in a crowd
Hollow room in a flooded house

And if we fall, we can
Wish away every bit
As it's all just a mirage so loud
Yeah, all in this flooded house

Distraction

So if I ever wanted to
Open my eyes beyond the
Narrow scope of unrest's view
Give me a reason to turn

From stupid mistakes and
Overt scars of late, can this
Reason alone save me now?

How it does make me happy, though
Escaping in words written
Release for me, a song for her, something to make us smile

To Sleep

A quiet lullaby
To help me fall away
Into the world where
That sole song
Expresses these
Distresses of late
Gently strumming
Humming away
And with each
Crooked arpeggio
I remember why
She forgets me in
A heartbeat when
She finds another
So all I want now
Is for this quietest
Of lullabies tonight
To cradle me till

[Till I'm whole again]

Locked Away

Slide the door shut
I don't want to be
Seen
Not like this, not
In such a frail
State of mind
I need a heart
Who'll care for
Me, no matter
What I do, I just
Want to feel loved
Not like I've
Been
In the past, and
Now, but I can
Only hope quietly
So please just
Close the damn
Fucking door

Heaven's Embrace

She slips through the trees
A vesper, twirling twixt
Clouds lined with golden rays
Of sunlight, desperate to
Break through, shine on
She laughs though, a silent
Yet entrancing voice
And she swirls, graceful
Caressing all she passes
All sway in her presence
The strongest are weak
In her embrace

So when the wind blows
The cradle will rock
Rock a bye, rock me to sleep

Evenings We're Alone

There's only so much we're designed to handle
A limit to our strength, the capacity to survive
With a smile for every day and every occasion
Then when someone asks, "Hey friend, how have
Things been going for you, is all right with
Your world, and are you happy?"
It's hard to not struggle for breath
And reply with the straightest of faces
In a cheery tone of imperfect concealment
That life is nothing but bliss and contentment
No hassles at all, to plague or beleaguer
After some idle chit chat, a while of useless
Exchanges, crawl back home, home into bed
Bed and just cry, cry, cry
Because there's no drive, drive, drive
And all that's left to do
Is cry
Cry
Cry

Slow Dance

I really did want to
With you
Because you feel right
In my arms
Just us and a track
Bare feet, my hand
On your back
Sharing our palms
Dancing together, tonight
With you
I still really want to

Lost Within

Now I ask myself
Over and over again if
There's any sincerity
Hidden in these words
In my tears and my
Numbing pains
God, does anything remain

Baby, there's a reason
Underneath all this treason
That I'm singing these lines

Look into these blurry eyes
If you can even hold my gaze
Establish a place there, and then
Simply throw me away

Symphonic

Tap tap, all instruments rise
We want them to feel our
First emotion of welcoming
Joy and elation, so we swell
With strings of sweet serenade
Swirling the soundwaves within
This hall till all are at peace
Then the verbrato of looming
Excitement, it's coming with
Every trill and then
The percussion of a thousand
Stampedes! Crashing, riding
On every beat, in sync with
The heartbeats that course
Through your body, keeping
You alive, alive, alive
Now, they will feel our
Burning desire, deepest
Angers, most craven fears
All within this simple score
Written out of nothing
But blood, sweat and tears

And then the lone piano
Quietly dispells a tiny plea
To be heard amongst
All the noise

Rise, take a bow. It's over

Would You

Sit a little while here with me
We can count the stars
Sitting in this lonely tree
See how they shine, shine afar
There's one for you, one
For me, it's that one there
Falling down, down from
The blanket of night's stare
This is beautiful, nothing but
I wish you could sit here
A little while for once with me, just
Not care about our fears
Yet I know you're away some
Where I can't reach you
Beyond the stars, you've run
To another's arms, after all we
Have been through

Soul Tie

It can kill you if
It's with the wrong
Person

It could make you
Whole again, anew
If it's with the right
Person

So what happens when
This person is so wrong
That it's right to love them
And all they do, regardless
Of how they hurt you
How you feel like
You've failed so many times
Sacrificed so much, all for this
Person

Such is the dilemma
Of a soul tie

When She Cries

I break a little inside
Because I can't make it better
I know she tries to hide
Everything, but I can't let her
Just get hurt, again and again
She doesn't care what happens
But I do, and she calls me insane
And pretends like it doesn't matter

Desparation

Where do you turn, when it all
Falls apart, as everything you
Knew to be the normal or the
Regularities simply split in
Half, then half again, again and
Again?

Regret In A Bottle

Twist the cap off
And just drink
Away every heart
Throb and misery
Make a toast
For the fuckers who
Broke a promise
Then tried to
Apologise, how sad
They are, cough
Up a little blood, I think
I've had too much, can't
Think straight, pity
Cause the most
I'll ever lose
Won't topple this
Bottle in my hand

But I'm completely
And utterly
Soberly, drunk

Look For You

Between the lines
Of every lyric
Within the hidden
Mysteries, subliminal
Messages and rhymes
Where the only critic
Is a forbidden
Criss cross, criminal
In act, yet a sign
A mark of a hypocrite
Constantly kidding
Himself that the minimal
Penance is a lifetime
Where he can mimic
Whilst remain bed ridden
Play make believe, that he's finished the search finally, for

Someone?

Sitting On The Porch

Watch the shooting star!
Descending from the sky
Hurtling through time and space
Messenger of a kingdom far
The tear as heaven might cry
For a world that's lost its place

Watch the falling rain!
How it crashes, countless
Collisions awakening the earth
Washing away all pain
The redemption boundless
Cleansed in this blessed rebirth

Listen to the wind blow!
Calling, howling refrain
Slipping through the break
In the facade that we know
Like the moon will wax and wane
It erodes all sorrow, all mistakes

Listen to the voices!
Their unison, such unison
Pulling at your heartstrings
Blurring out all other noises
That tear at our elation
Listen! Listen as they sing!