Colder Than Static

How it travels
This feeling crackling
Prickling my spine
Thousands of sparks
Cold as ice
Puncturing my system

But I wouldn't have it any other way.

Fuck Up

All I ever was
All I ever am
All I ever will be

Comprende?

Flame On

In this night
Nothing burns brighter
Than your light
Heart of a fighter

Second Place

So you don't know
I won't tell you
Because second
Is better than third
But staying stuck
Behind someone else
Kills me to be
But you'll never know
I won't tell you
Because I'll lose you
If I did

Stolen

Guilded lights
In city heights
Dizzying in the night
Whilst you fight
For breath tight

Running hands high
Holding your prize
What you stole
To survive

Roller

A dollar for every day
A day for every frustration
A frustration for every fray
A fray for every hesitation

If I had a dollar
I'd be a high roller

Song In This

And life's just another
Worthless ballad
Told by Romeo
To the Juliet
Who won't, just won't
Bloody get down
From the balcony

Fraying, Flaying, Flanging

It's coming now
Faster than you know
Gonna blitz you from each side
Every which way you look
This hypnotic, triptoxic
Mix of every riff raff
Bullets for my head
And damn it feels so good
This tearing, wrenching melody
Cuts to the core of what I need
It's coming now
Louder than before
Blazing from speakers each side
No matter where I look
It's my tonic, my chronic
You do the math
Lifting my spirits leaden
And damn does it feel good
As it blazes within me
Tearing away at my needs

Heartbreak Clicker

There's one in the door
Leaving before
Anything more
Can come too quick
Click

This one will agree
It's not she
Who could ever be
More than a trick
Click

Watch her leave
Try not to grieve
Her fingers with yours weave
And all you'll hear
Is another click

Click click
Fucking sound
Echoes in my life
One, two, twenty-true
One comes, two go
Click click click

Afraid Of The Dark

Would you, just for tonight
Stay here with me
And hold me in my fright
Be scared with me
Sing me to sleep till first light
So twisted shadows I'll not see
Stretching from the moonlight
Begging, aching to be free

So just this one night
Don't let go of me

Cradle To The Grave

Wake, rise up
Stronger now
Building more
Caring less
Love some here
Hate a few
Broken heart
Broken soul
Heal in time
Scar remains
Finding one
Takes the life
Keep searching
Hold her tight
Grasp her hand
Kiss her lips
Run away
To the end
Fall asleep

This Room

I can watch the sunrise
It's just beautiful
I can see the stars shine
They're so beautiful
I heard your voice that night
It was so beautiful
And all of these
I can watch and remember
From this room

Play That Track

All I seem to want
Is make myself feel
Like she needs someone else
She would want anyone
But me, myself and I
And I'll lay another record
On the twisting turntable
That plays a lonely melody
Consoling me into sleep

Walking away, put on a happy front
Don't let her steal
My dignity from myself
I'll fool everyone
But me, myself and I
And I'll place a final record
On the broken turntable
Straining out a melody
Robbing me of sleep

We Like It Like This

Ignore me
And what I say
It's mostly
My escape
When I need
Somewhere sane

Run Away

Get me lost
In the comfort
Of every sound
That plays now
I know the cost
But I need it
Before she comes around
Hide me now

Less You Know

So I'll fade into a distant memory
From a once off meet, to a forgotten
One of those we knew, never too well
Because more means less for those
Whom we need to cherish
And less means more for you
To pass on to those you love

So once I've faded from memory
From our first meet, now forgotten
One which I'll remember so well
Because you weren't just one of those
Whom I wouldn't want to cherish
And hold, just tell you
That it's you I love

Crush Crush

How we all start out
Where most will fall
And where I'm stuck
But it's just a crush, right?

Prescription Medication

If I'm sick, I'll take a pill

Or maybe fall asleep

Illness seek, destroy and kill

So my health may keep

But someday when my pills run out

The bottle lying empty

I'll take a knife and cut around

The sickness, in self pity

Just Another

When stories have it all right
The endings written to perfection
Doesn't it make you wonder
If you could have such a life
Holding hands on the beach at night
A picture to add to the collection

Chapter Nine

Mondays. Everyone's either happy to be back at school, seeing all their friends, discussing the weekend assignments, or depressed, pissed off and far behind in their work. Mentally, I began to check boxes as I proceeded to my locker.
Happy to be back at school? No.
Seeing friends? Yeah, why not. Check.
Weekend assignments? Er, check. Of course check. Of course.
Depressed? Check.
Pissed off? Check.
Far behind in work? What rubbish, the checked box for weekend assignments is clearly not a lie.
I sighed. Convincing myself that I wasn't screwed in maths class for my half finished assignment didn't change the fact that Mr Lester would jam my eye out with a metal ruler. Swearing under my breath, I slammed my locker door shut.
Late for class? Check.

This week was getting better and better wasn't it?

As I walked to the classroom, I began praying that Mr Lester had broken an arm, leg, anything, over the weekend and wasn't here today. I peeked through the classroom door's window. Prayer sucked, there was Mr Lester, ready as always, writing notes on the board. My eyes roamed over the desks. Troy was at our regular spot, and seemed to be intensely focused on something in his lap. Everyone else was busy writing down the notes on the whiteboard.
Then I saw it. That head of flowing, golden-brown hair. Sitting next to the empty seat Troy had reserved for me. I rubbed my eyes in disbelief. This sort of thing only happened in stories, not real life.

Oh, of course it did. Rubbing my eyes helped a lot. I was actually staring at the school hippie, with his also flowing, golden-brown hair. Lovely, I said quietly to myself, lovely. With that, I opened the door, quickly padded over to my chair and slid into the seat.

Need to get this girl out of my head? Check.

Get Lost

Hey there friend
Is it you I'm looking for, because for
Days and days I've searched high and low
Even through the rain, the hail, the snow

Anyone can tell you that there's
No one, so far, in my life
Despite the fact I'm surrounded by friends

Somebody out there likes to
Evade discovery and then when
Everything has fallen down they'll
Know it's time to show their face

[But if I play this game to lose, I think I'll quit before too long.]

White Shoes

They step
Forwards
Then back
Unsure
Every
Move they
Make in
Time to
The beat

Mockingbird

Now hush little baby don't you cry
Wipe those tears from those pretty eyes
Things are a little crazy
My little lady
But I promise
I'll stay with you through the night

Honesty

This is where I tell her a lie
To cover up another
Which masked the one before
That I created in defence
Of the first one I told
In order to conceal the truth
From being uncovered

This is why we cry
How we hurt each other
Virtue gets lost in war
As we hide behind the wire fence
And even when we're old
Devoid of our glorious youth
The truth is never discovered

This is how we should try
To stand as one, together
Go from door to door
Gathering, building strength
So even in lies so cold
There's no need for truce
But honesty, just honesty so revered

Stupid Question

Why do we lie through our teeth
Just to scream bloody murder
And it's all that people hear
Or want to, they're quick learners
Why is it every day's a struggle
Just to turn a new leaf
And when it looks like there'll be trouble
Your friends can't be found for a week

True to nature, it's survival of the fittest
But better yet, those who survive hate the consequences

North, South, East, Straight Up

Use my advice, get a little lost
'Cause you'll lose yourself to it all

First let's go forwards
Backtrack when we're unsure
Turn right, or was it left
Who cares, it all leads towards
A place where we can be more
Than what we are, mere self

So come with me, no matter the cost
Because we'll fly when we fall
Straight up, up, away.

Track Thirty-Four

I love the way everyone tries so hard to be unique. They'll go out of their way to create something they call "theirs", that is completely and utterly "random", never done before, never seen before, and one hundred percent theirs.

Welcome to the Window, and uniqueness is so rare it's almost bullshit.

You can tell a lot from a person from looking at their blog. Let's take me for instance. Judging by the type of posts I create, I'm a self-denying emotional child who thinks he can write pretty lines. When I want to feel good, I'll tell myself that I'm deep and meaningful, and a poet who creates epiphanies in a breath. Sounds so damn brilliant, I won't even need a degree with these skills.

Some people decide to have a stab at beliefs, ways of life, decisions, those sorts of things. They'll dress it up with some fancy flourishing language, with the occasional *insert stupid action between the asterisks* to make it look funny. Yes, they say they're expressing themselves, and there's nothing wrong with that. It's just a tad eccentric. Just a tad.

Then there are people who actually create a classic blog. They give us their day to day activities, which more often than not give us things to laugh about. All honesty, I wish I was the sort of person who could write a blog like that. Frankly though, my life's way too boring.

Finally, we have the poets, songwriters, masters of lyrical liasons, things like that. I swear, this category must have the most emos, it's quite funny.

You know what else is funny? I'm a huge hypocrite. I'm having a go at every demographic, something I dislike. Then again, the world needs hypocrites.

I should stop trying to sound so intelligent.

Take it easy everyone, and keep smiling =]

Simple Sounds

V1.
Simple sounds
They come and go
Slipping through
My broken stereo
Fade away
Like memories of late
Gone astray
Can't compensate

Bridge.
Oh, waves so loud
All around me now
And coming close to you
Feel the ground
Just fall and break

V2.
Simple sounds
In time you'll know
Echo through
Your hearts window
Listen close
You'll hear my voice
Calling
Calling to you

Bridge.
Oh, waves so loud
Crash around me now
And swelling close to you
Feel the ground
Crumble away

Chorus.
Simple sounds
Simple sounds
It's all there is
All I hear now
Simple sounds
Simple sounds
No need to worry
When you sleep in simple sound

V3.
Heartbeat's sound
That's what you'll hear
Flowing from
The ones you love so dear
Heartache's sound
It's just so near
Spoken soft
Into your ear

Bridge.
Oh, waves so loud
Rise around me now
Seperate me from you
As the ground
Leads you away

Chorus.
Simple sounds
Simple sounds
It's all there is
All I hear now
Simple sounds
Simple sounds
No need to worry
When you sleep in simple sound

Simple sounds
Simple sounds
It's all there is
All I hear now
Simple sounds
Simple sounds
No need to worry
When you sleep in simple sound


[Song two that I'll be recording next term, inspired by OneRepublic's "Come Home". Take it easy]

Don't You

V1.
I've got something good to say
But you won't believe me anyway
That's cool, baby
But it's a truth you've got to hear
I heard you and all your friends
Talking about that boy from the west end
It's alright, baby
But I heard he likes to play

Bridge.
Don't you fall for this charm
He's just biding his time
To come sweep you off your feet
And take you to cloud nine
Don't you let him kiss your cheek
He'll be back for more next week
Same old, shady child
Who broke your heart last time

Chorus.
He loves to play these games with you
Cause no one else will love him like you do
Kiss then fight, make up, same night
No wonder he comes back for more
Don't believe the lies he spins
He's had more girls than you could comprehend
You're worth more, I guarantee
So please don't you ignore me

V2.
This love, you seem to adore
To him, it's just a booty call
Two a.m., he's at your door
Baby why'd you let him in
He's had, Sarah and her twin
Followed by Claire and Catherine
He's got a list, checked it twice
And he's got you down for tonight

Bridge.
Don't you fall for this charm
He's just biding his time
To come sweep you off your feet
And take you to cloud nine
Don't you let him kiss your cheek
He'll be back for more next week
Same old, shady child
Who broke your heart last time

Chorus.
He loves to play these games with you
Cause no one else will love him like you do
Kiss then fight, make up, same night
No wonder he comes back for more
Don't believe the lies he spins
He's had more girls than you could comprehend
You're worth more, I guarantee
So please don't you ignore me

Bridge 2.
I can't promise you, a guy who's ten for ten
I can't give you someone perfect as a saint
I can't promise clear blue skies
But I can give you my love and life
This boy infatuation, is just that
And nothing more


[Lyrics to the newest song I'll be recording next term, let me know if you'd like a copy =] Take it easy people]

Let It Go

Can we play a little game just to pass the time
So I can be distracted from these heavy thoughts in my mind
I tried to sing it all away but they broke right through
And now it's worse than what it was because I'm thinking of you
I struggle when I try to find the words for this
It's too hard to speak when your heart is falling to bits
And every call between us makes it even harder to breathe
And every breath that follows feels like I've been cut open to bleed
I find myself holding onto the phone
Praying for your call in the times I feel so alone
But I feel like a fool, hoping and praying
For something that'll never happen, not in this life that I'm staying

Everything That's Wrong

You
Me
And the rest
Of the damn world
The irony might kill us all

Sleep At Nine

I've got nothing to stay awake for
Gladly I'll sleep like a child
Slip away into dream land

I've got everything to ignore
Sadly I'll remember like a child
Run away into no man's land

Knowledge Is (Not) Power

To know what I do
Everyday you're alive
Makes you wonder what's truth
And why it won't ever survive
The wise are the worst
They're plagued day and night
With visions of the cursed
Sleeping with eyes pried open with fright
Vagueness is bliss
It's as good as a kiss
There's nothing to miss
Yet everything in this

Blink Twice

Magic's in the air
For one day in the year
Click your fingers
Open your eyes
Quel bloody surprise
It's a sad affair
Because nobody'll hear
Your cry as it lingers
Close your eyes
And slowly, the light dies