Just a little something to pass the time
And break away from depressing lines
Needless to say, she's special in
Every single way you can imagine
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
Track Thirty-Six
Welcome to the Window.
I hate heartbreak. Every single form of it. You know why? Because it really holds true to its name. Break. When you break something, it doesn't matter how hard you can try to fix it, there are always going to be the cracks for all to see. Healing does happen, and only with time. I heard in a song that you cannot break the broken, and quite honestly, I'd have to agree. You can't break them, but you sure as hell can crush them. It's easier too, because the original resistance that existed is simply not there.
There's that feeling where the lump rises in your throat, and your arms and legs go weak. You clench your teeth, to try stay strong, to resist that overwhelming sense of defeat. You crumble from the inside, a shell with a dusty inside that's so fragile it'll take the smallest of knocks to crack it. Then you bite your lip, you can't scream, shout, sob, because people will know something's wrong. Go on, bite it till there's blood. Eyes welling up with tears you swore you'd never let fall again, constantly beating against the dams of your eyes. Blink to stem the flow, try it. It might just work if you concentrate really hard. Clench your fists, feel them shake with the effort that just doesn't seem worth it.
Then.
Break.
I can't keep smiling for too long, so smile for me.
=]
I hate heartbreak. Every single form of it. You know why? Because it really holds true to its name. Break. When you break something, it doesn't matter how hard you can try to fix it, there are always going to be the cracks for all to see. Healing does happen, and only with time. I heard in a song that you cannot break the broken, and quite honestly, I'd have to agree. You can't break them, but you sure as hell can crush them. It's easier too, because the original resistance that existed is simply not there.
There's that feeling where the lump rises in your throat, and your arms and legs go weak. You clench your teeth, to try stay strong, to resist that overwhelming sense of defeat. You crumble from the inside, a shell with a dusty inside that's so fragile it'll take the smallest of knocks to crack it. Then you bite your lip, you can't scream, shout, sob, because people will know something's wrong. Go on, bite it till there's blood. Eyes welling up with tears you swore you'd never let fall again, constantly beating against the dams of your eyes. Blink to stem the flow, try it. It might just work if you concentrate really hard. Clench your fists, feel them shake with the effort that just doesn't seem worth it.
Then.
Break.
I can't keep smiling for too long, so smile for me.
=]
Cliches Are All I Have Left
No once to catch
Me when I collapse
This rain, it's just
Beating me down
Weighing me down
Hear the sound
As I fall beneath
The burden of all
Of all, of all, of all
Then you call
And your voice
Helps me breathe
Then pulls me
Out of the depths
From underneath
The wreckage
But I'm broken in your arms
And you break me again
So when I'm broken
Breaking, crumbling
Blown away in the wind
Will you remember?
Me when I collapse
This rain, it's just
Beating me down
Weighing me down
Hear the sound
As I fall beneath
The burden of all
Of all, of all, of all
Then you call
And your voice
Helps me breathe
Then pulls me
Out of the depths
From underneath
The wreckage
But I'm broken in your arms
And you break me again
So when I'm broken
Breaking, crumbling
Blown away in the wind
Will you remember?
Cover
Over me, more ways than one
Shielding me from the setting sun
Concealing all that comes undone
Masking that which wishes to run
I hide within this, darkest mist
Eyes empty of tears I've missed
Rage clenched tightly in my fist
Urge to break, feel hopeless bliss
A sleeve to hide, the lowest pride
From one, grew twelve more, I lied
The front, back, on each and every side
Two inches long, a hairsbreadth wide
And when I've aged beyond my years
Escaped all of my impending fears
I'll cry my cries upon deaf ears
Praying, hoping someone hears
I see you, you can't see me
I'll try save you, while you ache to be free
You want this help, yet cut me so deeply
This is why I find comfort in shadows, see?
[Blackness all around, all around, till nothing remains]
Shielding me from the setting sun
Concealing all that comes undone
Masking that which wishes to run
I hide within this, darkest mist
Eyes empty of tears I've missed
Rage clenched tightly in my fist
Urge to break, feel hopeless bliss
A sleeve to hide, the lowest pride
From one, grew twelve more, I lied
The front, back, on each and every side
Two inches long, a hairsbreadth wide
And when I've aged beyond my years
Escaped all of my impending fears
I'll cry my cries upon deaf ears
Praying, hoping someone hears
I see you, you can't see me
I'll try save you, while you ache to be free
You want this help, yet cut me so deeply
This is why I find comfort in shadows, see?
[Blackness all around, all around, till nothing remains]
Impossibility
No, I don't sleep till three in the morning
Or four, five, six when the dawn's breaking
Tell me, is it normal, to stay awake
Heavy in though and mind of nothing but
Images and memories and integrities
Numberless possibilities and lies to lead
Glowing in the darkness so calming
Thousands, they said, thousands of reasons
Only one really matches
Let me imagine it for a little while
In this semi-catatonic state
Vapour of an existence I'll
Evade the truth as long as it can wait
From it all, I don't want to live
Or die, either way it's a chance to give
Rise to a sleep that's permanently affective
Or four, five, six when the dawn's breaking
Tell me, is it normal, to stay awake
Heavy in though and mind of nothing but
Images and memories and integrities
Numberless possibilities and lies to lead
Glowing in the darkness so calming
Thousands, they said, thousands of reasons
Only one really matches
Let me imagine it for a little while
In this semi-catatonic state
Vapour of an existence I'll
Evade the truth as long as it can wait
From it all, I don't want to live
Or die, either way it's a chance to give
Rise to a sleep that's permanently affective
Monday, June 29, 2009
Past And Present Scars
Whether they're from a day
Or a month, a year ago
Reality is, that the price to pay
Slowly catches up, you know
Even when they're so faint
Why? Oh I don't really understand
It's just a simple scratch to take
That reminds me, when it can
How to not make the same mistake
Everyone sees every one
And every one feels like hell
Can't they just fade in the sun
Heal with time, that only tells
Could you give me a reason
Undermine my insanity
To save myself?
Or a month, a year ago
Reality is, that the price to pay
Slowly catches up, you know
Even when they're so faint
Why? Oh I don't really understand
It's just a simple scratch to take
That reminds me, when it can
How to not make the same mistake
Everyone sees every one
And every one feels like hell
Can't they just fade in the sun
Heal with time, that only tells
Could you give me a reason
Undermine my insanity
To save myself?
Sunday, June 28, 2009
Rising
There's something deep
Inside, within me, swelling
Growing whilst I sleep
This darkness quelling
Living, breathing thoughts
I once knew and dreamt
Of happiness, all sorts
Now scattered, unkempt
Inside, within me, swelling
Growing whilst I sleep
This darkness quelling
Living, breathing thoughts
I once knew and dreamt
Of happiness, all sorts
Now scattered, unkempt
Saturday, June 27, 2009
Track Thirty-Five
Welcome to the Window.
As always, it's been a long, long time since I last made a Track, but to be completely honest, I just couldn't be bothered. There's so much happening, so many issues clogging my mind that it's literally impossible to find the time to sit down and write something like this. Well, now it's holidays, and I've sort of run out of excuses.
I'm not saying I've also come to the end of my issues. Far from it. On the contrary, my nice little irritations just keep getting bigger and bigger, but at least I'm staying positive! Well, outside anyway.
I don't want to keep doing this all the time. By this, I mean feeling like I have to wait to get hurt. It's along the lines of sitting on the train tracks watching a train coming towards you at a hell of a speed. I can hear it, I can feel the tremors rumbling through the tracks, I can see the blinding headlights telling me to move, and yet I just can't. A smart boy, that's what I am.
Give me a reason to justify
All these different reasons burning
I just want this pain to nullify
Disappear like a passion yearning
Take it easy everyone, and keep smiling =] Even if it looks like there's no way out.
As always, it's been a long, long time since I last made a Track, but to be completely honest, I just couldn't be bothered. There's so much happening, so many issues clogging my mind that it's literally impossible to find the time to sit down and write something like this. Well, now it's holidays, and I've sort of run out of excuses.
I'm not saying I've also come to the end of my issues. Far from it. On the contrary, my nice little irritations just keep getting bigger and bigger, but at least I'm staying positive! Well, outside anyway.
I don't want to keep doing this all the time. By this, I mean feeling like I have to wait to get hurt. It's along the lines of sitting on the train tracks watching a train coming towards you at a hell of a speed. I can hear it, I can feel the tremors rumbling through the tracks, I can see the blinding headlights telling me to move, and yet I just can't. A smart boy, that's what I am.
Give me a reason to justify
All these different reasons burning
I just want this pain to nullify
Disappear like a passion yearning
Take it easy everyone, and keep smiling =] Even if it looks like there's no way out.
Crystal Moment
Everything's so clear
Oh everything, every
Single damn thing
Refracted in the
Gleaming starlight
Oh everything, every
Single damn thing
Refracted in the
Gleaming starlight
Friday, June 26, 2009
Disassociation
"So fucked up, that's what you are
Who does that sort of thing?
I don't want to know someone
Like this, with such pretty patterns
I never saw them from afar
But now I'm closer, does it sting?
Each and every single one
All over, I can see them scatter
So fucked up, that's what you are"
Who does that sort of thing?
I don't want to know someone
Like this, with such pretty patterns
I never saw them from afar
But now I'm closer, does it sting?
Each and every single one
All over, I can see them scatter
So fucked up, that's what you are"
Thursday, June 25, 2009
Sunburn
You're beautiful
In everything
That you do
You give me the
Light I need
To live, thrive
And yet no matter
I still burn deeper
Beyond recognition
Because of you
Paradox
In everything
That you do
You give me the
Light I need
To live, thrive
And yet no matter
I still burn deeper
Beyond recognition
Because of you
Paradox
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
I Hate This
Use me because it's fun
This distraction
You forget
In a fraction
Of a heartbeat
I want to forget
In a fraction
Of that same
Heartbeat
Every memory
Of you
This distraction
You forget
In a fraction
Of a heartbeat
I want to forget
In a fraction
Of that same
Heartbeat
Every memory
Of you
Never Mind, Never Mine
She slips away from me
Again and again
Vanishing into the sea
Ever crashing
My vice she has become
Even though she'll be the death of me
Fumbling with confusion
Rocked from head to toe, if
Only she wasn't the illusion
My mind longed for
Tonight, she forgets once more
How much, just how much
I truly, stupidly, cut to the core
Save me from this
Again and again
Vanishing into the sea
Ever crashing
My vice she has become
Even though she'll be the death of me
Fumbling with confusion
Rocked from head to toe, if
Only she wasn't the illusion
My mind longed for
Tonight, she forgets once more
How much, just how much
I truly, stupidly, cut to the core
Save me from this
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
This Night Is Ours
Built from nothing at all
A pile of mere imagination
Crafted with blood, sweat and tears
Four years, enduring all
Ridicule, hatred, segregation
Developing into grudging
Respect, shock, awe
This night, we came
We saw, the lights flashed
We conquered
A pile of mere imagination
Crafted with blood, sweat and tears
Four years, enduring all
Ridicule, hatred, segregation
Developing into grudging
Respect, shock, awe
This night, we came
We saw, the lights flashed
We conquered
Monday, June 22, 2009
Collect And Connive
From this sheath
Draw that which you
Took from him
And just drive it
To the hilt into
My back
Draw that which you
Took from him
And just drive it
To the hilt into
My back
Sunday, June 21, 2009
Who Belongs
You, in the white shirt
Stand over there where
We can see you in your
Stupidity of naivety
Mock that which you
Worked so hard to
Build whilst trapped
Within a life that
Will never appreciate
All you do
Stand over there where
We can see you in your
Stupidity of naivety
Mock that which you
Worked so hard to
Build whilst trapped
Within a life that
Will never appreciate
All you do
Saturday, June 20, 2009
Friday, June 19, 2009
Bruise
Black, with a tinge of blue
A little shade of sadness
Masking the hue
Of the original gladness
We'll find comfort from this
A little shade of sadness
Masking the hue
Of the original gladness
We'll find comfort from this
Thursday, June 18, 2009
Crime For Fun
Steal this
Break it, quick
Vandal is my name
The thrill of it all
Hear the outrage
Whine of sirens
Screaming my name
It's applause, it is
Break it, quick
Vandal is my name
The thrill of it all
Hear the outrage
Whine of sirens
Screaming my name
It's applause, it is
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
Born In Sunshine
Light of a shadow
Creeping through the
Dark and dim, hallowed
In stories to tell
Kissed by the rays
Beaming down so bright
From the vast arrays
Of stars this night
Creeping through the
Dark and dim, hallowed
In stories to tell
Kissed by the rays
Beaming down so bright
From the vast arrays
Of stars this night
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
Practice Made Prejudice
It's drilled into the mindset
Of a twisted insanity
Adjudicated by one who
Blatantly recreated a truth
Lost, souless, vile,
Slippery tongued tenacity
Of a twisted insanity
Adjudicated by one who
Blatantly recreated a truth
Lost, souless, vile,
Slippery tongued tenacity
Monday, June 15, 2009
West Is The New East
In the times where right
Is the new wrong
And the safety light
Will never belong
Amongst the darkest hours
These streets so cold
Cracked homes of ours
Happiness sold
North turned south
And this world is turning
Slowly, slowly
Away from You
Is the new wrong
And the safety light
Will never belong
Amongst the darkest hours
These streets so cold
Cracked homes of ours
Happiness sold
North turned south
And this world is turning
Slowly, slowly
Away from You
Sunday, June 14, 2009
Make It Easy
Just someone to love me too
Was all I wanted her to be
But she never ever knew
How or why she hurt me
And with each cut I bleed
From, another escape route
It's become more than a need
Still, these scars suit
Me down to the ground
Because they remind
Every day, and without a sound
Make it easy to rewind
Was all I wanted her to be
But she never ever knew
How or why she hurt me
And with each cut I bleed
From, another escape route
It's become more than a need
Still, these scars suit
Me down to the ground
Because they remind
Every day, and without a sound
Make it easy to rewind
Saturday, June 13, 2009
In It All
I'll walk away from this
With nothing but an
Emptiness, it's bliss
Once you push past
The fact you're not missed
With nothing but an
Emptiness, it's bliss
Once you push past
The fact you're not missed
Friday, June 12, 2009
Art Of Breaking
As quietly as you can
Without them hearing you
Shout in a voice of static
That cascades waves of noiseless
Mishaps and
The loudest crack, the split-two
Of a broken heart in an attic
Above the bliss, belonging to the voiceless
Without them hearing you
Shout in a voice of static
That cascades waves of noiseless
Mishaps and
The loudest crack, the split-two
Of a broken heart in an attic
Above the bliss, belonging to the voiceless
Thursday, June 11, 2009
Reasons
You want reasons
Why my restless mind steals my sleep away
Why these dark thoughts keep me this way
Trapped inside a cage built to house the insane
Why my arm's carved in more ways than one
Why I try convince myself that the end hasn't come
And there's nowhere I can run
You really want the reasons?
Why my restless mind steals my sleep away
Why these dark thoughts keep me this way
Trapped inside a cage built to house the insane
Why my arm's carved in more ways than one
Why I try convince myself that the end hasn't come
And there's nowhere I can run
You really want the reasons?
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
The Slam
Turn over the tables
In a rage so blind
You'll cut all the cables
Linked to you from behind
Holding you back
From that ledge so close
Yeah, I know you want to jump
I dare you
This is it, the decision to make
This is the slam
In a rage so blind
You'll cut all the cables
Linked to you from behind
Holding you back
From that ledge so close
Yeah, I know you want to jump
I dare you
This is it, the decision to make
This is the slam
Tuesday, June 9, 2009
Anthem For The Lost
Good for a distraction
Forgotten in a second's fraction
No one remembers the lost
Hold on till you can walk alone
Once you're steady and strong
Push away from brought you along
Everyone forgets the lost
He tries so hard to be everything
She needs, only to be second to nothing
Nothing's name is someone else
And he's placed back on the shelf
He joined the lost
Forgotten in a second's fraction
No one remembers the lost
Hold on till you can walk alone
Once you're steady and strong
Push away from brought you along
Everyone forgets the lost
He tries so hard to be everything
She needs, only to be second to nothing
Nothing's name is someone else
And he's placed back on the shelf
He joined the lost
Monday, June 8, 2009
Graffitification
Take this can
Make my presence known
You'll see me everwhere
You go, I'm watching you
Through this paint
On the walls and the billboards
Floating high above
Or down below it all
I'll make sure
You see me
Make my presence known
You'll see me everwhere
You go, I'm watching you
Through this paint
On the walls and the billboards
Floating high above
Or down below it all
I'll make sure
You see me
Sunday, June 7, 2009
Vague In Clarity
Can hear the words
They aren't flowing
Like they should be
Can feel this melody
It isn't flowing
The way it could be
Can see this image
That's not flowing
How it would be
Then it all makes sense
Yeah, makes sense now
They aren't flowing
Like they should be
Can feel this melody
It isn't flowing
The way it could be
Can see this image
That's not flowing
How it would be
Then it all makes sense
Yeah, makes sense now
Saturday, June 6, 2009
Friday, June 5, 2009
Mine
They're all objects of affection
Shining in the light of
You, my very own affliction
All I ever think of
Mine
Shining in the light of
You, my very own affliction
All I ever think of
Mine
Thursday, June 4, 2009
Bullets
Hit one
She lied
To you
Hit two
She promised to
Never again
Hit three
When you can't find
It in you to trust
Hit four
The one that kills you
She lied
To you
Hit two
She promised to
Never again
Hit three
When you can't find
It in you to trust
Hit four
The one that kills you
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
False Pretext
Who do I think I am
That I could do this to myself
Hate myself to the degree
That indifference has become
The third most used mask
In my entourage of faces
Preceded by happy and helpless
But who cares anyway
It's funny, right?
That I could do this to myself
Hate myself to the degree
That indifference has become
The third most used mask
In my entourage of faces
Preceded by happy and helpless
But who cares anyway
It's funny, right?
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
Hoarse
Scream till you're
Cry till you're
Shout till you're
Laugh till you're
Sing till you're
Till you can't anymore
Cry till you're
Shout till you're
Laugh till you're
Sing till you're
Till you can't anymore
Monday, June 1, 2009
Cry In A Tune
When a quaver becomes your tears
And the forte the swell of hate
That's building with the crescendo
Of the glissando rippling through your heart
Accents of aggression, legato fears
Subtly slinking through the sheets
With a broken arpeggio that echoes
Every shattered chord you made
You're left with this song
And the forte the swell of hate
That's building with the crescendo
Of the glissando rippling through your heart
Accents of aggression, legato fears
Subtly slinking through the sheets
With a broken arpeggio that echoes
Every shattered chord you made
You're left with this song
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