Bipolar

Perhaps I'll start this ordinary day
in a smile of drugged self-control
Leave one half behind, locked away
Lover of the hell which could unfold

This is how I have to live this life
Obsessed with freedom, suppressed to survive

Kill the slow hours with some work
Especially when the mind slips, weak
Every breath counts, the control hurts
Pent up stress slowly building, relief seek

Maybe this glass will help me
Even though I know hell will unleash

Slowly, the bonds break, get ready
As the fun begins, life looks great
Nothing can stop me now, I said get ready!
Enough! Let the fucking mind games begin!

Interpretatio Misunderstanding

What did you say
Those quiet words
That slipped away
I never heard

Maybe my mind
Can't recognise
So just rewind
Say that short line

Crowded House

There's that feeling
You're the one not wanted
"Two's company, three's a crowd"?
What trash, pure utter trash
The crowd only happens
When you try to join a unit
You're the one not wanted
That spare piece of puzzle
Individually, they're not so bad
As a whole, well things change
You're the one not wanted
Maybe you should go off
Just make your own damn group
A crew for your very own
No one likes the feeling
Of being alone in a crowded room
No one.


[Can I join in?]

Scream

Raise some voice above
That hellish noise to love
Addiction, drugs fall short
No cure was ever caught
Slip a gag over my mouth
Or else I won't stop this shout
It just gets louder here
So just move, move damn it

Back In The Day

I liked to watch the sky go round
Count all those pointless clouds
Finding the perfect dream
Was all life ever seemed

That's what life was like
In those simple times
Now all I have tonight
Are my simple rhymes

Back in the day
I had a dream
But it didn't last
To see this day

One Day On A Rainbow

That's what one day with you is like
That's what spending an hour with you is like
That's what seeing you is like
That's what hearing your voice is like

It's a day in the sunshine
A day without rain
Something I dream of
Without you, I'm not the same

Wait for me.
Soon, very soon, we'll join the bluebirds.

Photograph

Maybe it's just a snapshot
Even so, it lasts a lifetime
Much longer than my memory does
Oh that's for sure, much longer
Realisation's slowly setting in
Yesterday I left, today I arrived, tomorrow...

[Well, tomorrow I'll be home. In your arms. Finally]

Tipsy

Isn't it sad
How this is
The first time
In so many days
I've been so
So completely happy

Maybe it's got
Something to do
With how much
I miss you
Yeah, that sounds
Just about right

Pass me another one
I'll drown my sadness
If it's
The last
Thing I
Do

I miss you

Broken Shoes

Walked all the way here
From the time when I wasn't so near
I'm tired now, just a little bit
Don't say a word, it'll make me want to quit
Half way here I got lost
My map was torn from bottom to top
So I tried to thumb a ride
No one saw me standing on the side

But I'm here now, that's all that matters
Right?

Tired Of Television

I'll stare at that glowing screen
Simply wondering if maybe
If maybe I stare for long enough
And focus on the thought of you
I'll see you in that screen
Just for a split second? No, not
Now, not ever, it's just a delirious
Anonymous dream I had last night
I'm sick of this glowing screen
It hurts my eyes.

I'm not crying,
The screen hurts my eyes,
That's all

Three Days Behind

I don't know whether this is the first
Or the last of many falters
All I'm sure of, so very sure of
Is that I got caught up in the past

Fall With Me

You'd hold my hand right?
Trust me to keep you safe
Well, look down, way down
We can't see the bottom
The other side is only just
A few short metres away
But I don't want to cross
This chance has come now
Fly or fall with me, either way
You'd hold my hand right?

[Right?]

Still Life

Have to wait another month
Only thirty days more from tonight
Listening to the hours run
Days missing my left in your right

Missing the smallest five point star
You'll never be too far

Heavy eyelids in the sun
As you turn your head into mine
Now just feel my pulse
Doesn't it flow for you?

Chapter Seven

I closed the front door of my house quietly, then leaned back against the wall. That name. I'd never heard such a beautiful name before. Mind in a daze, I slowly shuffled up the stairs to my bedroom. I just couldn't stop thinking about that name! Finally, the face had a name, and now it was plaguing my mind just as badly.

Zahra. When you look at it, it doesn't seem like much. When she said it though, that was something magical. The air was alive with electricity, her voice sent thousands of sparks running through my body, all the way to my fingertips. I know, stereotypical metaphorical garbage, but a better way to describe the feeling I will never find.

Zahra. The name that changed. Everything.

Five Minutes Away

I'm close to you
So close
And yet I'm far from you
So far, so very far
Music can't save me
From the thought of you
Soon I'll be gone
Where'll you be?

Story

I had a friend who forgot his name
Not because he had the choice
But because he just wanted to escape
Block out the past and the present noise
One day he got a gun, loaded it up
With bullets he'd made from soldering lead
Held it in his right hand, a letter in left
Closed his eyes, lifted the gun to his head

[Story? That's the end.]

Click Click

Slip one into the chamber
Just one is all I'll need
Lock it back in position
Knock back the hammer
Finger wrapped around
The trigger.

Click. Click. Boom.

Tickle Your Fancy

What'll it be, let me ask you this
As we begin this silent night of bliss
Perhaps a quiet tune to start us off
Followed by the waltz, send spirits aloft
Do simple riffs embrace your ear
Or is it the complex you're craving to hear
Whatever you need, I'll play it for you
On this silent night of bliss, in a sea of dark blue

Brother [A Dedication]

There was no one stronger
Not in my world, anyway
No one who would live longer
Watch out for me everyday
Hold my hand when I cried
Make me laugh when I fell
Set me straight all this while
Have my back, never tell

We spent so many days
Just wasting our sweet time
Always found so many ways
To make most of the sunshine
Fight? Yes we did, of course
But that's brotherhood for you
Between us there's a force
Unbreakable, believe it's true

So now I sit here beside you
In this steel chair all alone
Waiting for you to wake up soon
Hoping that you can come home
I'll sit here beside you
So long spent here all alone
Waiting for you to get up soon
Because I need you back home

Rem!cks

When it's quietest, I'll sit here and just waiT
Every word of the day travels down my mind's patH
Let my mind rest, a temporary escapE
Closely look now, as mist fogs up the glass
Only a thin sheet between high and loW
My thin sheet of see-through soul, my cracking alibI
Each sliver of space a scar from lonely time on my owN
This hurts more to say than think, I've come to finD
True, it's taken more than just a minute or sO
Once it's finished, it doesn't sound that bad, you knoW?